ugh
so Im not comming back till the 5th
not that any of you fuckers care
you can just scroll over this when you're thinking about yourselves
but fuck
I have to do something
I cant sleep
its been almost 2 days now
no matter how hard I try I cant sleep
I want to fucking go home
Im just sitting in this fucking apartment watching tv all god damn day
I just want to fucking die
my sister just comes home
eats
then goes to sleep till she has to leave again
I really just want to fucking die
I feel so neglected and worn out
fuck
fuck
fuck
god damnit
I want to fucking die
Im sick of not having my music
Im sick of the cold
Im sick of not having my computer
I want to blow my fucking brains out
I swear to god if I decorate another god damn cup with paint pens Ill blow my fucking brains out
I hope for my birthday I get a shit load of pot
and I hope everyone remembers it
but they wont
no one ever does
and if they do they dont fucking care
all my shits almost over anyways
I wanna take these fucking extensions out but Lauren would kill me if she knew I had a mohawk
god forbid she love her sister for what she is
I dont have a sewing machine
for fucks sake
I dont even have a fucking pair of scissors
my eyes burn
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
I think I almost died monday night
but no one would have cared
espically me
heh
Lauren said it herself "17 doesnt matter"
no one cares
Ill never have my god damned liscense
Ill never have a fucking car
I want to die
DIE I TELL YOU
I WANT TO FUCKING BLEED TO DEATH AND FEEL MY LAST GOD DAMN MOMENTS SLIP AWAY FROM ME AS I THINK OF HOW NO ONE WILL GIVE A FLYING FUCK IF IM DEAD OR NOT
I always planned to kill myself on my birthday
ever since 2nd grade
I would always plan to kill myself on my next birthday if I didnt achieve my goal
I still havent reached it
I should justget it over with
fuck it
not that any of you fuckers care
you can just scroll over this when you're thinking about yourselves
but fuck
I have to do something
I cant sleep
its been almost 2 days now
no matter how hard I try I cant sleep
I want to fucking go home
Im just sitting in this fucking apartment watching tv all god damn day
I just want to fucking die
my sister just comes home
eats
then goes to sleep till she has to leave again
I really just want to fucking die
I feel so neglected and worn out
fuck
fuck
fuck
god damnit
I want to fucking die
Im sick of not having my music
Im sick of the cold
Im sick of not having my computer
I want to blow my fucking brains out
I swear to god if I decorate another god damn cup with paint pens Ill blow my fucking brains out
I hope for my birthday I get a shit load of pot
and I hope everyone remembers it
but they wont
no one ever does
and if they do they dont fucking care
all my shits almost over anyways
I wanna take these fucking extensions out but Lauren would kill me if she knew I had a mohawk
god forbid she love her sister for what she is
I dont have a sewing machine
for fucks sake
I dont even have a fucking pair of scissors
my eyes burn
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
I think I almost died monday night
but no one would have cared
espically me
heh
Lauren said it herself "17 doesnt matter"
no one cares
Ill never have my god damned liscense
Ill never have a fucking car
I want to die
DIE I TELL YOU
I WANT TO FUCKING BLEED TO DEATH AND FEEL MY LAST GOD DAMN MOMENTS SLIP AWAY FROM ME AS I THINK OF HOW NO ONE WILL GIVE A FLYING FUCK IF IM DEAD OR NOT
I always planned to kill myself on my birthday
ever since 2nd grade
I would always plan to kill myself on my next birthday if I didnt achieve my goal
I still havent reached it
I should justget it over with
fuck it