danmit........
So usually, everyday I go to my grandmas and what not. My uncle pays me 10 dollars a day, which equals to 50 dollars a week. I had decided to save my money this month and try to find a cheap digital cam, so I would have one when I went to hayesville. But this morning my mom gets a call from my uncle saying, "Grandmas is dehidrated and has really low blood pressure, she is in intensive care, so Alise wont be needing to come to the house today." UGH therefore I believe I will not have enough money for a cam. Sometimes I feel like that woman ruins everything. Although I feel kinda bad for feeling that way. As I was smoking my morning ciggarette I thought, "if she dies I would probably get money, so then I could get one." I really hate that I think that, but in all honesty I just cant help but feel that way. But dad said its kindof ok to feel that way, because she has wanted to 'be with dad' for a very long time. I dunno though, I still feel like shit. And Im probably not ganna get a camera. damnit. loose loose situation. oooh. I cant believe I said that. Im just ganna stop, its only getting worse.
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