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Dear Sean,
IT doesnt feel real. i still feel sick to my stomach. I was with you that night. The first time in years since i seen you. God or someone wanted me to see you before you passed. i love you so much your really our little super hero batman now. I didnt even reckonize you that night but you knew who i was. Im so glad we took that walk together regardless if you lied to me that night about a lot i knew why you were doing it. You told me you were depressed and you asked me to just leave the party and stay at ur house with you and just hangout and isaid i couldnt. Who knows maybe if i stayed you would have too. I hope you didnt do this on purpose because you were so special. You were one of the best Sean and everyone knew that. You told me how you always think of that night at carolyns where we sat on the roof together and then cuddled on the couch all night til the morning. I wish i had that all back right now. Honestly ill admit that the entire night i slept at mike mcdonalds taking care of his drunk ass i was thinking about you and how i was excitted to get my new car and come pick you up the next day. This really hit home Sean. And i love you since the first day i met you at like 13 years old, Flyers Skate Zone. You were such alittle punk ass. you were so skinny and all decked in black. You've always been such a little heartbreaker. Your always with me i cant say it enough how much i miss you and how awful it feels to know that ill never see you in life again. I pray to god that your alright and that your at peace with your grandpop.Your going to be with me for the rest of my life Sean. Touching your hand today was one of the hardest things i have ever done. Seeing you lay there and knowing you really werent there anymore. Seeing your tattoos that only a few days before you were showing off to me. you made me hug you like 4 times that night and im so glad i did. Sean if you ever actually see this on a lighter note...i carried you in beer pong that night and thanks for drinking for me..But like i said I learned from the master :) i love you and i dont want to let you go. I am so sorry Sean that i left that night and didnt say goodbye. I want to go back so bad and just hug you and tell you i love you. I feel terrible for just leaving but i just figured id see you the next day. I love you.
Is this really happening?
The little Sean i remember.
IT doesnt feel real. i still feel sick to my stomach. I was with you that night. The first time in years since i seen you. God or someone wanted me to see you before you passed. i love you so much your really our little super hero batman now. I didnt even reckonize you that night but you knew who i was. Im so glad we took that walk together regardless if you lied to me that night about a lot i knew why you were doing it. You told me you were depressed and you asked me to just leave the party and stay at ur house with you and just hangout and isaid i couldnt. Who knows maybe if i stayed you would have too. I hope you didnt do this on purpose because you were so special. You were one of the best Sean and everyone knew that. You told me how you always think of that night at carolyns where we sat on the roof together and then cuddled on the couch all night til the morning. I wish i had that all back right now. Honestly ill admit that the entire night i slept at mike mcdonalds taking care of his drunk ass i was thinking about you and how i was excitted to get my new car and come pick you up the next day. This really hit home Sean. And i love you since the first day i met you at like 13 years old, Flyers Skate Zone. You were such alittle punk ass. you were so skinny and all decked in black. You've always been such a little heartbreaker. Your always with me i cant say it enough how much i miss you and how awful it feels to know that ill never see you in life again. I pray to god that your alright and that your at peace with your grandpop.Your going to be with me for the rest of my life Sean. Touching your hand today was one of the hardest things i have ever done. Seeing you lay there and knowing you really werent there anymore. Seeing your tattoos that only a few days before you were showing off to me. you made me hug you like 4 times that night and im so glad i did. Sean if you ever actually see this on a lighter note...i carried you in beer pong that night and thanks for drinking for me..But like i said I learned from the master :) i love you and i dont want to let you go. I am so sorry Sean that i left that night and didnt say goodbye. I want to go back so bad and just hug you and tell you i love you. I feel terrible for just leaving but i just figured id see you the next day. I love you.
Is this really happening?
The little Sean i remember.
