haha oops
i have not wrote(written?) in this for quite some time. over a week. unheard of!
its mainly because i dont have the energy. or time. or motivation.
my life is so dissatisfying at the moment and i feel i am stuck in a rut. i feel the only cure for this is to get out of denton for good. but that wont be happening until summer so i just have to sit and wait now. no motivation to do otherwise. its depressing.
i constantly want to sleep.
i even wish there was some more dramz in my life so i could feel some sort of emotion even. im not happy with my life being to straight lined. its like im slowly decaying into mainstream school and work. no boyfriend in sight, which would be nice. only home wreckage that i feel more sick about than satisfied.
i died my hair brown. i felt it necessary for a little minor change, but its only made me feel more dull. bland. im sort of used to sticking out. i feel that i look just like every other person who walks by me.
i do know i will find a way out of this rut, i just dont see it happening soon.
something major needs to happen so im blindsided into changing.
im a fucking sophmore in college. these should be the best days of my life.
in reality, theyre the worst.
so far.
its mainly because i dont have the energy. or time. or motivation.
my life is so dissatisfying at the moment and i feel i am stuck in a rut. i feel the only cure for this is to get out of denton for good. but that wont be happening until summer so i just have to sit and wait now. no motivation to do otherwise. its depressing.
i constantly want to sleep.
i even wish there was some more dramz in my life so i could feel some sort of emotion even. im not happy with my life being to straight lined. its like im slowly decaying into mainstream school and work. no boyfriend in sight, which would be nice. only home wreckage that i feel more sick about than satisfied.
i died my hair brown. i felt it necessary for a little minor change, but its only made me feel more dull. bland. im sort of used to sticking out. i feel that i look just like every other person who walks by me.
i do know i will find a way out of this rut, i just dont see it happening soon.
something major needs to happen so im blindsided into changing.
im a fucking sophmore in college. these should be the best days of my life.
in reality, theyre the worst.
so far.