i dont read banned books...sometimes
of course its a beautiful saturday evening and i am sitting here at the front desk at the library. First off, ive only been here 2.5 hours but i feel that it has been the slowest 2.5 hours of my whole life. My eyelids feel heavy, my eyeballs feel dry, my back is aching, the effects of my previous migraine from yesturday is still lingering, and i can feel alcohol filtrating through my liver as i type this. why am i always complaining in this dumb online journal?
so last night after drinking lots of beer and just feeling sick and bored from it, ive decided to take a break on drinking beer. most of the time the taste just grosses me out and i have to drink a shit ton to even get to my desired drunkenness. and it makes you fat and unhealthy. and unfortunately for me i dont have the super power of drinking 2 beers and being drunk, like SOME PEOPLE. lucky bastards.
wine and tequilla from now on.
So im going to sometime soon dye my hair. dark. thats probably an over exaggeration because ive never dyed my hair dark and im quite anxious. but i think im ready, mentally and physically. bahaha. im not even sure how i will look with darker hair. plus my hair is so blonde that it wont probably hold color very well and it will just fade to a gross shade of disgusting. i need change in my life so maybe ill just start with my hair. im retarded.
so i have filled out my transfer application for admission to colorado state university but i am really scared to send it in. what if i dont get in or worse........what if i do??? thats a huge step for me. if i move there, i wont know anybody. it will be like starting all over again. where will i live? what if i move in with somebody i hate. and doesnt party? ill convert them. i want to live in a house with oversized pine trees and views of mountains. i want to live with a free spirited, happy, intelligent, pot smoking person, but how am i going to find such a person or a place by looking on CRAIGSLIST? what if i actually move in with some pedophile or clean freak or fat smelly gamer? gross.
i just need a little reassurance. and im not getting it from my family, thats for sure.
but i guess its not or never.
in other news, im excited for all of the following coming up within the next few months:
STATE FAIR
registration for spring
fun fun fun fest in austin
halloweeeen
cold weather
thanksgiving and seeing carly
san deigo with tiney
christmas lights
christmas time in general
so last night after drinking lots of beer and just feeling sick and bored from it, ive decided to take a break on drinking beer. most of the time the taste just grosses me out and i have to drink a shit ton to even get to my desired drunkenness. and it makes you fat and unhealthy. and unfortunately for me i dont have the super power of drinking 2 beers and being drunk, like SOME PEOPLE. lucky bastards.
wine and tequilla from now on.
So im going to sometime soon dye my hair. dark. thats probably an over exaggeration because ive never dyed my hair dark and im quite anxious. but i think im ready, mentally and physically. bahaha. im not even sure how i will look with darker hair. plus my hair is so blonde that it wont probably hold color very well and it will just fade to a gross shade of disgusting. i need change in my life so maybe ill just start with my hair. im retarded.
so i have filled out my transfer application for admission to colorado state university but i am really scared to send it in. what if i dont get in or worse........what if i do??? thats a huge step for me. if i move there, i wont know anybody. it will be like starting all over again. where will i live? what if i move in with somebody i hate. and doesnt party? ill convert them. i want to live in a house with oversized pine trees and views of mountains. i want to live with a free spirited, happy, intelligent, pot smoking person, but how am i going to find such a person or a place by looking on CRAIGSLIST? what if i actually move in with some pedophile or clean freak or fat smelly gamer? gross.
i just need a little reassurance. and im not getting it from my family, thats for sure.
but i guess its not or never.
in other news, im excited for all of the following coming up within the next few months:
STATE FAIR
registration for spring
fun fun fun fest in austin
halloweeeen
cold weather
thanksgiving and seeing carly
san deigo with tiney
christmas lights
christmas time in general