Still Sad...

[numbingmypain]

I still havent slept...I still havent eaten...and i still havent talked to him...I cry all the time...i go home sit up locked up in my room listening to music thinking of him...i cant even think at school...there is nothing i can do to sleep...drugs dont work...alcohol dont work...nothing works...all i do is think...i cant function...im like a walking body with no soul...i am numb...all i feel is pain, im hurt... i couldnt do it last night...i tryed but i couldnt do it...i really wanted to but all i could do is cry and picture him sitting there yelling at me...i wish there was something i could do to make everything better...someway i could talk to him...let him know i never did anything like that to him...i would never do anything like that to him...

How could i let myself get attached so quickly? im so scared of being alone...but im scared of getting hurt...which i did..again...and now i have nothing left to show except for a broken heart and scars on my wrists...what have i become? im a nothing...a nobody...i will never amount to anyone...so why should i live?