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So, im having a little girl...im going to name her Brookelynn Jade...James has decided that he wants absolutely nothing to do with me or our child...how someone could turn their back on their own child, i cannot and will never understand...but it really hurts to be in love with someone who does not realize how much...i would do anything for him...and unless he is an actor, he felt that way once before...i can feel the baby moving...she is doing flips in my stomach...it feels weird, but also relieving...i guess if i feel her move i feel that she is okay...that she does not know what all her father is putting me through...she is so small and innocent, not even in this world yet, and her life is already changing...she had both parents at first, and now only one...i know i can give her everything i never had...love most of all...but i know that the day will come that she wants to know who her father is...and i dont know if i can handle it...when you love someone and they dont love you back...its hard, and now its even harder that im pregnate with his child...he was perfect for me in every way...but i guess just like Brandon, the drugs took over, and there is no love or compassion left in his heart...