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i should be getting ready for work now. and i will be, in a sec.
there's a lot going on lately.
most of it makes me just want to sleep.
it's hard to have anything left, sometimes. any anger, any sadness, any fear; you get conditioned after a while- you learn that no matter how you react, sometimes things are just going to happen the way they're going to happen and that's all there is to it.
usually it's not even as bad as you expected.
i'm not really referring to any specific situation here. i've been chock full of anxiety attacks all month for reasons i can only sometimes figure out.
i'm too old for this.
i'm too young for this.
i don't understand why people treat themselves the way they do. running from your problems doesn't make them go away, it just makes it worse when they catch up with you. medical problems, psychological disorders, smoke coming from your engine, trouble with the law, the abuse you're taking, a hole in your roof, that feeling in your stomach.
the longer you let it go, the farther you try to run, the worse it gets. why is everyone so far in denial?
i, for one, am going to step up and take care of the things i've been ignoring. i'm not naive, crazy or stupid enough to think things will just get better if i ditch out and start over; i have to wrap up my loose ends first. this is called being a responsible adult.
then, and only then, will i get the hell out of here.
first taiwan, then the world. there's so much waiting for me to get there.
in unrelated news, nothing cheers me up like my favorite bear actor of all time:
there's a lot going on lately.
most of it makes me just want to sleep.
it's hard to have anything left, sometimes. any anger, any sadness, any fear; you get conditioned after a while- you learn that no matter how you react, sometimes things are just going to happen the way they're going to happen and that's all there is to it.
usually it's not even as bad as you expected.
i'm not really referring to any specific situation here. i've been chock full of anxiety attacks all month for reasons i can only sometimes figure out.
i'm too old for this.
i'm too young for this.
i don't understand why people treat themselves the way they do. running from your problems doesn't make them go away, it just makes it worse when they catch up with you. medical problems, psychological disorders, smoke coming from your engine, trouble with the law, the abuse you're taking, a hole in your roof, that feeling in your stomach.
the longer you let it go, the farther you try to run, the worse it gets. why is everyone so far in denial?
i, for one, am going to step up and take care of the things i've been ignoring. i'm not naive, crazy or stupid enough to think things will just get better if i ditch out and start over; i have to wrap up my loose ends first. this is called being a responsible adult.
then, and only then, will i get the hell out of here.
first taiwan, then the world. there's so much waiting for me to get there.
in unrelated news, nothing cheers me up like my favorite bear actor of all time: