ugh
I feel like a confused monkey (that makes no sense but oh well).
i dunno, it just feels like everyone is going through life a lot faster than me and I'm just stuck in a bunch of mud and I can't get out. And yet again I feel like I'm wasting my life and just sitting around waiting for stuff to HAPPEN TO ME rather than going out for it. I was always like this. Well I do get sudden bursts of complete hyperness and I want to meet everyone around me. Then people just think I'm plain odd. hmmmmmm. But then I start feeling like a bother all over again and seclude myself. gotta get out of the habit. I want to go out and enjoy myself without feeling like no one wants be to be there.
Ugh, now my low self esteem has gotten me into deeper problems. wah. Thats what I was like most of the time at CTD. I wanted to meet people and go out and have fun but I just felt like I was bothering people. But oh well. That made me really depressed the 1st week. when everyone else was panicing about the work load... I had already given up and just started feeling plain lonely. Thats when I needed my Sana Banana. *shrugs* I guess I had a lot of fun the second two weeks but I could've had more. I didn't go to a single organized trip. well, i just had no one to really go with. whatever.
my eye is twitching alot. ugh
well what I'm getting at is that I always regret my past and thats why I get into miserable moods. i know what my problems are and I give other people advice on how to fix their problems (Which are so much like mine) but I can't seem to fix my own. moron? yes indeed. wanderer? *nods*
someone needs to give me an unlimited amount of hugs. right now. no one to do that.
I like this song. yaaron. makes me feel sad and happy at the same time. hmmm. I want this cd.
summer homework= shitty. seriously. why give it to us? now I gotta test out of earth science too, so I seriously better start working.
i dunno, it just feels like everyone is going through life a lot faster than me and I'm just stuck in a bunch of mud and I can't get out. And yet again I feel like I'm wasting my life and just sitting around waiting for stuff to HAPPEN TO ME rather than going out for it. I was always like this. Well I do get sudden bursts of complete hyperness and I want to meet everyone around me. Then people just think I'm plain odd. hmmmmmm. But then I start feeling like a bother all over again and seclude myself. gotta get out of the habit. I want to go out and enjoy myself without feeling like no one wants be to be there.
Ugh, now my low self esteem has gotten me into deeper problems. wah. Thats what I was like most of the time at CTD. I wanted to meet people and go out and have fun but I just felt like I was bothering people. But oh well. That made me really depressed the 1st week. when everyone else was panicing about the work load... I had already given up and just started feeling plain lonely. Thats when I needed my Sana Banana. *shrugs* I guess I had a lot of fun the second two weeks but I could've had more. I didn't go to a single organized trip. well, i just had no one to really go with. whatever.
my eye is twitching alot. ugh
well what I'm getting at is that I always regret my past and thats why I get into miserable moods. i know what my problems are and I give other people advice on how to fix their problems (Which are so much like mine) but I can't seem to fix my own. moron? yes indeed. wanderer? *nods*
someone needs to give me an unlimited amount of hugs. right now. no one to do that.
I like this song. yaaron. makes me feel sad and happy at the same time. hmmm. I want this cd.
summer homework= shitty. seriously. why give it to us? now I gotta test out of earth science too, so I seriously better start working.