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This was quoted part was written back in April..
"Dear -,
I don't know when you'll read this but I thought I'd let you know that today I was having a really bad day and I thought of you, and smiled.
We haven't really "talked" in a while, and we aren't so close anymore, but just know that I never really knew until recently that I need you to be a part of my life.
Sorry, fifteen minutes later and I'm back.
Nathan and Wade came over.
Anyway, that's pretty much it.
I don't know when I'll be able to talk to you."
I read it, and I've come to realize that happiness really is sacrifice. If the only way I can be happy is for somebody else to be happy, than so be it, you know? Well, yeah, I hope you do because it's a tough lesson.
I know that I'm only 17, and I actually just turned 17, so this might just be the typical teenage post, but I know I'm losing everybody close to me.
It honestly makes you a stronger person; but you can only get so strong until you're the strongest, and if you're the strongest you no longer have to work for anything..and then what is the point of existence if you don't have anything to strive for? Aha.
I'm not saying what you think I'm saying, I just have bad wording.
Or maybe I am, depending on if you understand.
I'm alright, really. It's a disappointment, but I'm not begging anybody to love me, to stay with me, or to remember me.
If you want to hate me, hate me, if you want to leave me, leave me, and if you want to forget me, let me know, and I'll forget you too.
I'll be more than happy to leave you alone in your quest for self-discovery.
Alison dropped me out of her life over a year ago, and even though I know I should get over it, I never will..because I don't understand how you can let somebody confide in you for so long, and then take everything they've said to you, and use it against them. I don't understand how you can pretend like you never cared, or like they weren't there for you for three fucking years. Yeah, I know, Alison is a part of my past, and dwelling on the past won't get me anywhere, but it's reoccurring.
What do you do when you have a friend and you spend moments, life changing moments together, and they just turn on you? Like..like it was a roller coaster ride. I guess that makes sense. They do say life is a roller coaster..I just didn't think they meant that your friends literally got off at the end of the ride and left for good. Whatever. I know it's my choice to keep the friendship in this situation, or let it go..but if I have a friend who wants to say that things that are extraordinarily important to me are made up, I feel like I should walk away. Who should I trust in the situation though? I know it's a test. Life is one huge test right? Hahahaha, fucking hilarious. I hope I pass! No bitch. Not funny.
Whatever.
No matter how much you want it, no matter how much you try, you'll never escape your past. It's made you who you are so far, and once you learn to get over that, you'll learn that you can make yourself a new person. Forgetting the people, and forgetting what you've been through will only make your journey harder, because you'll never know what you want, what you like, or what you need.
I don't know if it's envy, if it's hatred, or if it's just the need for plain attention, but I'm sure you'll learn that saying things about your friends will get you nowhere. You're only showing other people you're fake, and that you're not a true friend if you're sitting there, pretending. It's your first impression that makes the biggest dent. It can even make your last..or maybe your last one can make a new first.
You'll never be happy by just dropping an issue. It'll always be in your conscious, unsolved. You have to solve out your issues in order to be happy.
That's life.
Life is unfair, yeah, but you don't spin the world. The world spins you.
I know I'm not alone in this. I'm not saying I'm the only one, but hopefully I can speak out for other people.
"Dear -,
I don't know when you'll read this but I thought I'd let you know that today I was having a really bad day and I thought of you, and smiled.
We haven't really "talked" in a while, and we aren't so close anymore, but just know that I never really knew until recently that I need you to be a part of my life.
Sorry, fifteen minutes later and I'm back.
Nathan and Wade came over.
Anyway, that's pretty much it.
I don't know when I'll be able to talk to you."
I read it, and I've come to realize that happiness really is sacrifice. If the only way I can be happy is for somebody else to be happy, than so be it, you know? Well, yeah, I hope you do because it's a tough lesson.
I know that I'm only 17, and I actually just turned 17, so this might just be the typical teenage post, but I know I'm losing everybody close to me.
It honestly makes you a stronger person; but you can only get so strong until you're the strongest, and if you're the strongest you no longer have to work for anything..and then what is the point of existence if you don't have anything to strive for? Aha.
I'm not saying what you think I'm saying, I just have bad wording.
Or maybe I am, depending on if you understand.
I'm alright, really. It's a disappointment, but I'm not begging anybody to love me, to stay with me, or to remember me.
If you want to hate me, hate me, if you want to leave me, leave me, and if you want to forget me, let me know, and I'll forget you too.
I'll be more than happy to leave you alone in your quest for self-discovery.
Alison dropped me out of her life over a year ago, and even though I know I should get over it, I never will..because I don't understand how you can let somebody confide in you for so long, and then take everything they've said to you, and use it against them. I don't understand how you can pretend like you never cared, or like they weren't there for you for three fucking years. Yeah, I know, Alison is a part of my past, and dwelling on the past won't get me anywhere, but it's reoccurring.
What do you do when you have a friend and you spend moments, life changing moments together, and they just turn on you? Like..like it was a roller coaster ride. I guess that makes sense. They do say life is a roller coaster..I just didn't think they meant that your friends literally got off at the end of the ride and left for good. Whatever. I know it's my choice to keep the friendship in this situation, or let it go..but if I have a friend who wants to say that things that are extraordinarily important to me are made up, I feel like I should walk away. Who should I trust in the situation though? I know it's a test. Life is one huge test right? Hahahaha, fucking hilarious. I hope I pass! No bitch. Not funny.
Whatever.
No matter how much you want it, no matter how much you try, you'll never escape your past. It's made you who you are so far, and once you learn to get over that, you'll learn that you can make yourself a new person. Forgetting the people, and forgetting what you've been through will only make your journey harder, because you'll never know what you want, what you like, or what you need.
I don't know if it's envy, if it's hatred, or if it's just the need for plain attention, but I'm sure you'll learn that saying things about your friends will get you nowhere. You're only showing other people you're fake, and that you're not a true friend if you're sitting there, pretending. It's your first impression that makes the biggest dent. It can even make your last..or maybe your last one can make a new first.
You'll never be happy by just dropping an issue. It'll always be in your conscious, unsolved. You have to solve out your issues in order to be happy.
That's life.
Life is unfair, yeah, but you don't spin the world. The world spins you.
I know I'm not alone in this. I'm not saying I'm the only one, but hopefully I can speak out for other people.