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so the other day my mom told me not to write anything about the flavin family (aka- my "dad"). But im not going to because i can express myself however i want to, its my right to let people know what kind of person he is. All i can say is i am very happy without him here. Even though money will make my lifestyle change. Im also glad seans dad said im allowed to come over whenever, and if i need to i can talk to him whenever i want. Unlike my dad, who i cant ever talk to him since hes always sleeping or not giving a damn... when kay died all i got was a "oh" from him even though i was bawling my fucking eyes out! show some compassion if you ever get married. And apparently what i heard from heidi or my mom that i had gotten drunk on monday night? too bad i was at seans house till 12, then i came home to talk to tara and then saw her the next morning. Now i will admit to have drank in the past, and the following day i didnt do anything but sleep. And i dont really have the urge to drink anything because i am happy. I dont even have the urge to really smoke any cigarettes since my dad is gone. Yeah my uncle is gunna read this but whatever... he'll probably show this to him too, i dont care. It doesnt bother me, and if they use this kind of stuff to show "im a bad person" when my dad finally devorces my mom it wont prove anything... for all they could know it was a friend who typed this up, or maybe i typed part of it. who knows. maybe i am typing this? but trying to prove that i am "such a bad person" would have nothing to do with the case. Or the divorce. because im not getting sued, or punished for trying to be a positive role model. IM just trying to do my best, im trying to show richie he needs to stand up for himself, he needs to not complain. I attacked my dad because i was tired of all the abuse i have suffered for stupid reasons like not giving him the remote, not wanting to pick something up, getting into an arguement. I was also tired of the verbal abuse (happened just about daily), the emotional abuse, but mainly the physical (about once every couple months) abuse that was directed towards heidi and richie. It hurts for me to see them go through what i had to go through. And when we go to court (over the whole custody matter) i will describe what kind of father he is, and describe my relatives to everybody there. (im not saying my relatives are bad or anything) And i know my dad is going to try to get heidi and richie over to my aunt and uncles houses just so he cant pay child support. But im still enrolled in highschool, and that means he'll have to pay child support, and when i go to college he'll have to pay it then too... Or atleast from what i've read. It'll suck if heidi and richie are gone, the house will be empty for most of the time... But heidi is over the legal age to choose whom she'd like to live with. Heidi and richie are much calmer without my dad, richie not complaining as much... since he's left richie has complained only once or twice.
i dont know what the point of this entry was, other than whats going on and whatnot...
but in other news, my dad screwed up the dell when he took it and did whatever, but its all good because i fixed it, and its working much nicer.
But also my band has recorded 3 songs today along with buttplug nation.
and those songs we recorded are nazi skin, AP (associated press... crazy bill being smart in writing), and usa... which when we converted into an MP3 shortened by half its length.
Make sure you make it out to sams on sept 3rd to see our debute!
and then dec. 3rd to see us rock out in cattlet virginia at turras birthday party bash/show. (our first actual venue show)
i dont know what the point of this entry was, other than whats going on and whatnot...
but in other news, my dad screwed up the dell when he took it and did whatever, but its all good because i fixed it, and its working much nicer.
But also my band has recorded 3 songs today along with buttplug nation.
and those songs we recorded are nazi skin, AP (associated press... crazy bill being smart in writing), and usa... which when we converted into an MP3 shortened by half its length.
Make sure you make it out to sams on sept 3rd to see our debute!
and then dec. 3rd to see us rock out in cattlet virginia at turras birthday party bash/show. (our first actual venue show)