Whatever, Times... What?
What do I want? Where am I going? Why is that when I leave a crappy situation, I return and it is still crappy? And why am I suddenly in love with Jared Leto?
I feel like I am losing everyone close to me. My father hates me for some reason unknown. And now he's all anti-navy. "It's your life. Do what you want with it." My mother is actively living her life but still... idk. I mean I don't think I have any active complaints about my mother. My sister is annoying me. The same old same old sister stuff. I mean at first I'm doing her this huge favor and she's being nice to mw. But now she's getting on my fucking nerves again. Whatever. I'm sick of relationships... friendships... everything. You can't rely on any of it. People that you've known for years tend to not give a damn about what you're going through. Sure, it may be the same old same old shit, but the same old same old support would be nice as well... All though now that I think about the support was never really there. I know what I want I just don't know how to get it. How is success measured anyway? Things that people have "suddenly" realized about themselves I always knew.
My nerves are shit and my hormones are fucked up so I'm smoking again. Don't worry kids we're talking tobacco. Sara and I started dating but then I wrote her off because I was uneasy about some situations taking place and now we're not really talking. I am trying to get away next month. I am trying to be in the Navy by October. Up up and away. Okay I'm bored with this now and fighting a major headache so I'm gone.
I feel like I am losing everyone close to me. My father hates me for some reason unknown. And now he's all anti-navy. "It's your life. Do what you want with it." My mother is actively living her life but still... idk. I mean I don't think I have any active complaints about my mother. My sister is annoying me. The same old same old sister stuff. I mean at first I'm doing her this huge favor and she's being nice to mw. But now she's getting on my fucking nerves again. Whatever. I'm sick of relationships... friendships... everything. You can't rely on any of it. People that you've known for years tend to not give a damn about what you're going through. Sure, it may be the same old same old shit, but the same old same old support would be nice as well... All though now that I think about the support was never really there. I know what I want I just don't know how to get it. How is success measured anyway? Things that people have "suddenly" realized about themselves I always knew.
My nerves are shit and my hormones are fucked up so I'm smoking again. Don't worry kids we're talking tobacco. Sara and I started dating but then I wrote her off because I was uneasy about some situations taking place and now we're not really talking. I am trying to get away next month. I am trying to be in the Navy by October. Up up and away. Okay I'm bored with this now and fighting a major headache so I'm gone.