Well What the Fuck?!
What the fuck indeed. Okay so I wuit my job yesterday right? How about the manager calls me twice amd leaves messages on my phone. And I kid you not he actually said on my voicemail, "We're begging you to come back." What the fuck? So I called them back and they were like if you can stick it out in the lobby for another week we will transfer you to the general merchandise department. So I said okay. I mean for three managers to call me and ask me to come back, it would be really shitty of me to not even talk to them. But I am still my ever paranoid self. So I am just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Plus, I'm kinda relunctant to face Chad. I mean... gah I am sooooooooooooo ATTRACTED to him! And Nick and he are really good friends (I have no idea how when Chad is so cool and Nick is such a dick) and you know I've pretty much brought Nick up to the front burner as asshole of the year. So I don't even know what to say to Chad when I see him. Hopefully Conway Jen and Annie have sorta had an influence on how he'll react to me raising hell by wuitting and then coming back. Damnit. But maybe it's good, because in the general merchandise department I won't be around Chad that much. I don't know what it is about that white boy that makes me go all schoolgirl inside.
Speaking of guys: Matt called me today. He said he was calling to check up on me. But he was also calling to tell me that he was going out of town... AGAIN. Okay so here's the story. Matt has to go out of town "for work" a lot. But he only has metro pcs. So he's out of the town all the time and I can never reach him. And I hate it. He says he'll be back between Friday and Sunday. So I'm not even going to get my hopes on that one. I know I'll be spending my birthday alone. Unless of course I go out and party or something. I mean I like Matt. When we're together it is so NICE. But we're rarely together. And he's always out of town or "something comes up." Or whatever. And I want us to have a relationship because hello we've slept together, but then sometimes I'm like why do I want us to have a relationship so bad if I'm already not happy with it? I wanna talk to himbut I mean I think this is a face to face kind of talk but we're never face to face. So of course he told me to call him sometime this weekend. I'll call him Saturday. Hopefully he'll be back because I really do want to spend some time with him.
I bought a computer from Dell! It cost me $400 and should be here by next week. That was pretty much all my savings but shit I think it was worth it. I now have a bed, a living room set, and a computer. Now I have to start saving all over again. Am I becoming an adult?
As ever I end this entry just wanting to be loved. or liked in the least... so Matt, or Chad (preferably an unmarried Chad:) ) one of you should get on the ball.
Speaking of guys: Matt called me today. He said he was calling to check up on me. But he was also calling to tell me that he was going out of town... AGAIN. Okay so here's the story. Matt has to go out of town "for work" a lot. But he only has metro pcs. So he's out of the town all the time and I can never reach him. And I hate it. He says he'll be back between Friday and Sunday. So I'm not even going to get my hopes on that one. I know I'll be spending my birthday alone. Unless of course I go out and party or something. I mean I like Matt. When we're together it is so NICE. But we're rarely together. And he's always out of town or "something comes up." Or whatever. And I want us to have a relationship because hello we've slept together, but then sometimes I'm like why do I want us to have a relationship so bad if I'm already not happy with it? I wanna talk to himbut I mean I think this is a face to face kind of talk but we're never face to face. So of course he told me to call him sometime this weekend. I'll call him Saturday. Hopefully he'll be back because I really do want to spend some time with him.
I bought a computer from Dell! It cost me $400 and should be here by next week. That was pretty much all my savings but shit I think it was worth it. I now have a bed, a living room set, and a computer. Now I have to start saving all over again. Am I becoming an adult?
As ever I end this entry just wanting to be loved. or liked in the least... so Matt, or Chad (preferably an unmarried Chad:) ) one of you should get on the ball.