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So im back at the library...
I really dunno what to say on here anymore..i guess cuz i been out of the whole livejournal scene for awhile now.
Miseal and i are still doin great. I really cant get over how much i care for him. I seriously thought id NEVER get over James. But since ive met Miseal, i hardly ever think about him, and if i do...i just smile. I dont frown, nor do i shed a tear, i just smile an thank god for everything ive got, and giving me James to know what it is to not be loved, and now im blessed with knowing what love really is. I think with James, i was so desperate for him to love me that i loved him even more to try to make him see how much i wanted things to be perfect. Which just pushed him further away. Which now, i see i did the right thing because you cant make your heart feel or do things for people when the love just isnt there. So, im really glad things worked out the way they did.
With Miseal, i dont have to ask for attention, nor begg for it like i had to with James. When my baby comes home, its all about me. Spendin time with me is the number 1 thing on his mind. He ALWAYZ has kisses for me, and hugs, and always holds my hand, alwayz wants to wash me in the shower, and put me first before anyone. Its just so nice to have someone go to sleep holding you and you wake up with them rubbing your face and giving you kisses-thats love when you kiss me in the morning over and over cuz my breath is kickin lol. *sighs* Im just so...happy. Truely happy. Weve been together 5 months and things just get better and better.
Well, i wanted to go cath up on journals but i cant read you alls journal cuz the print is really tiny..i guess cuz of the library computers..i dunno..anywayz..take care!
I really dunno what to say on here anymore..i guess cuz i been out of the whole livejournal scene for awhile now.
Miseal and i are still doin great. I really cant get over how much i care for him. I seriously thought id NEVER get over James. But since ive met Miseal, i hardly ever think about him, and if i do...i just smile. I dont frown, nor do i shed a tear, i just smile an thank god for everything ive got, and giving me James to know what it is to not be loved, and now im blessed with knowing what love really is. I think with James, i was so desperate for him to love me that i loved him even more to try to make him see how much i wanted things to be perfect. Which just pushed him further away. Which now, i see i did the right thing because you cant make your heart feel or do things for people when the love just isnt there. So, im really glad things worked out the way they did.
With Miseal, i dont have to ask for attention, nor begg for it like i had to with James. When my baby comes home, its all about me. Spendin time with me is the number 1 thing on his mind. He ALWAYZ has kisses for me, and hugs, and always holds my hand, alwayz wants to wash me in the shower, and put me first before anyone. Its just so nice to have someone go to sleep holding you and you wake up with them rubbing your face and giving you kisses-thats love when you kiss me in the morning over and over cuz my breath is kickin lol. *sighs* Im just so...happy. Truely happy. Weve been together 5 months and things just get better and better.
Well, i wanted to go cath up on journals but i cant read you alls journal cuz the print is really tiny..i guess cuz of the library computers..i dunno..anywayz..take care!