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i wanna thank my friends for being there for me through the last couple of days, i am really needing it. i dont think i can do it with out you all and i just need a lot of help through this, i know it will be rough but i AM strong enough to do it. even though i have treated some of you like shit you still come through and help, and i really thank you for it. i think right now i am realizing how much i need you guys and how it makes a BIG difference with guys helping me b/c i know i would not be able to do it on my own. i hurt so bad right now and i just want it to go away but i need to make it go away and the only way of getting it to go away would be restrain myself from doing the good things for him. i know some ppl are prolly what the hell i am talking about and some already know what i am talking about but i dont think i have the strength right now to explain it b/c it hurts too much to even think about and i am thinking about it, which sucks. i have a feeling that i am just repeating myself and tomorrow i will look at this and go what the hell did i just write but right now this is how i am feeling and i need to just let it out so it doesnt hurt soo much. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!