Object PermanencenullonehalfJuly 19 2008, 18:42:10 UTC
I've given you my heartfelt apologies and kind overtures, and many other things besides. These span years.
Truly giving me the time of day would mean -- and would have meant -- really thinking about what these meant and putting them to use, rather than demanding another, and another, and another, all the while nurturing undying suspicion, jealously, mistrust and resentment.
You spit on -- literally, on several occasions -- my overtures for reconciliation and friendship, more times than I can count. I gave reconciliation a great many chances, made peace-making my business, and unfolded three whole years of my life into chances and opportunities. I did this freely. I have no regrets or grudges, but there is no one who can justly tell me that I gave less than was due.
You, on the other hand, were very fond of telling me, over the years, that some chances only come once.
Remember that life is in a constant state of flux, and consider what "one chance" really means.
I appreciate your apologies, and I truly hope that you are well and happy. Even now, that is the only thing I wish for.
Don't send condolences if you expect something in return. I'm not ignoring you. What's happened is that I've said all that I have to say. Don't press me for more; you have three whole years of memories to look back and reflect on. Think about those, and contemplate what they mean.
There's a great deal there to think about. I'm not finished.
There's nothing I might say can be a substitute for the silence wherein the real meaning of the past unfolds.
Truly giving me the time of day would mean -- and would have meant -- really thinking about what these meant and putting them to use, rather than demanding another, and another, and another, all the while nurturing undying suspicion, jealously, mistrust and resentment.
You spit on -- literally, on several occasions -- my overtures for reconciliation and friendship, more times than I can count. I gave reconciliation a great many chances, made peace-making my business, and unfolded three whole years of my life into chances and opportunities. I did this freely. I have no regrets or grudges, but there is no one who can justly tell me that I gave less than was due.
You, on the other hand, were very fond of telling me, over the years, that some chances only come once.
Remember that life is in a constant state of flux, and consider what "one chance" really means.
I appreciate your apologies, and I truly hope that you are well and happy. Even now, that is the only thing I wish for.
Don't send condolences if you expect something in return. I'm not ignoring you. What's happened is that I've said all that I have to say. Don't press me for more; you have three whole years of memories to look back and reflect on. Think about those, and contemplate what they mean.
There's a great deal there to think about. I'm not finished.
There's nothing I might say can be a substitute for the silence wherein the real meaning of the past unfolds.
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Sorry.
There's no reason to be so angry.
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