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So I figured it was about time for an actual entry actually about how my life is going. And I can pretty much sum it all up in one word: amazing.
Things have been looking up so freaking much lately. I don't know what it is. It's like, I'm still stressed out about everything that has been going on in general, but its all becoming a lot easier to deal with. I got my work permit in the mail yesterday so I can start driving to and from work legally, which definitely puts my mind at ease. I'm in the midst of buying Rachel's Celica which makes me so freaking excited that I can hardly stand it. I feel like I'm finally buying something that I'm going to own. It'll be no one's but mine's. No one gave it to me, I worked for every fucking penny I'm going to put into buying and insuring that car, and that's something I can't say about a lot of things. I just researched insurance quotes online and it's not nearly as much as I was planning on it being, it's just going to set me back a bit in actually buying the car because I have to put a down payment on it. So anyone that feels like lending me $400 feel more than free to let me know.
Work has been doing just fine on the overall. Kinda slow, but still truckin' along. I might not so much hate the fact that I'll be staying there through this summer. Everyone I work with is like the closest knit, most dysfunctional family I've ever known and I couldn't love them more. I feel I might never have a closeness like this with any of my other co-workers ever. No matter how long I do or don't work there, I'll always have some of the best friends I've ever made.
The only downer of the time being is the fact that God has been treating me much better than I've been treating him. I've been going back on promises I've made to Him and not following through on things I know He wants for me. I feel like things have been going so well lately almost as a gesture of Him trying to show me how good things could really be if I was doing everything I know I should be doing. I'm trying to stifle my hypocricy and listen to what those who care about me really have to say. I know they're just trying to help [in most cases] and I know they understand that I can't take them completely into account at this point. I have to do this on my own.
I'm just trying really hard to put my life back together right now and I'm making a lot of mistakes, but I'm doing the best that I know how.
Things have been looking up so freaking much lately. I don't know what it is. It's like, I'm still stressed out about everything that has been going on in general, but its all becoming a lot easier to deal with. I got my work permit in the mail yesterday so I can start driving to and from work legally, which definitely puts my mind at ease. I'm in the midst of buying Rachel's Celica which makes me so freaking excited that I can hardly stand it. I feel like I'm finally buying something that I'm going to own. It'll be no one's but mine's. No one gave it to me, I worked for every fucking penny I'm going to put into buying and insuring that car, and that's something I can't say about a lot of things. I just researched insurance quotes online and it's not nearly as much as I was planning on it being, it's just going to set me back a bit in actually buying the car because I have to put a down payment on it. So anyone that feels like lending me $400 feel more than free to let me know.
Work has been doing just fine on the overall. Kinda slow, but still truckin' along. I might not so much hate the fact that I'll be staying there through this summer. Everyone I work with is like the closest knit, most dysfunctional family I've ever known and I couldn't love them more. I feel I might never have a closeness like this with any of my other co-workers ever. No matter how long I do or don't work there, I'll always have some of the best friends I've ever made.
The only downer of the time being is the fact that God has been treating me much better than I've been treating him. I've been going back on promises I've made to Him and not following through on things I know He wants for me. I feel like things have been going so well lately almost as a gesture of Him trying to show me how good things could really be if I was doing everything I know I should be doing. I'm trying to stifle my hypocricy and listen to what those who care about me really have to say. I know they're just trying to help [in most cases] and I know they understand that I can't take them completely into account at this point. I have to do this on my own.
I'm just trying really hard to put my life back together right now and I'm making a lot of mistakes, but I'm doing the best that I know how.