I still can't believe it
I just can't believe it. G's Grandfather dies on May 30th -- 26 days later his Grandmother dies. I just can't believe it. The pain is unbearable. To lose two people that are so close to you - that have been there for you all your life in less than a month is unimaginable. My heart hurts not just for the loss of friends, but for the pain that G is going through. I just want to make it better and I can't. I see it in his face and when we talk, but he won't discuss it too much in detail. He is like me in that I have to process stuff for a long time before I'll deal. I am just grateful that they were a part of my life for the past 11 years.
Emotions run from disbelief to sadness to anger in rapid intervals. To lose one was heartbreaking, but to lose BOTH in less than a month! There was not time to mourn and deal with the first death before it began again! The whole time we were at the hospital with Grandmother everyone was saying "I CANNOT Believe This Shit!" It was just too soon for it to all be happening again...
When Grandfather died it was expected - it was almost a relief. He was finally free of pain, free of needles. Grandmother was an absolute shock. She had broken her hip on May 6th and had to go live at a rehab center until she was mobile again. The doctor had given her the ok to go home the day before she went to the emergency room. He even said she could start driving again! She went to the ER on a Wednesday and then died that Saturday morning shortly after midnight. G and I were there along with G's parents and sister. I am very happy we were there with her. She hated to be alone and we got to tell her we loved her one more time.
[I won't go into details about what happen to cause her death, but I will say that I believe the rehab center is at fault and that I hope the family (at the very least) files a complaint and sues.]
I know that it is often true that when one spouse dies the other will soon follow, but Grandmother wasn't planning on leaving so soon. If she had not gotten sick she would have been with us at least another year if not ten. She was making too many plans to be on the brink of giving up. I didn't see the fight die until she was laying in that hospital bed. She was a strong woman and she will be missed.