i haven't posted like this in a long time.
I am officially not working at the Pittsburgh Project this summer as I have officially not been offered a position there. I can almost here my brother laughing now as he said to me just as of last night, "ash, why is it always so hard for you to get a summer job?" I don't fucking know brother.
Its probably just stress but i'm becoming increasingly anxious about the transition to pitt. its not that i want to be in philly, or even in holland. i'm just thinking realistically about proximity, about how i have no money and no job, about relationshipfriendship dynamics, about who even wants to live communally anymore, and what that means, and will we all just fall into nuc holes anyways(nuclear black holes), etc etc etc.
i got all riled up in class last night and on the phone with jacob and then stephen. and am questioning everything about everything. it felt good to be understood and mutual about passions, but its also things i have a hard time laying down and having peace about.
and i have to come back to philly on the 21st of may to go to my $646 dollar parking ticket hearing.
its times like this that escaping to the harbor or the woods with red or honduras with nina looks better and better.
Its probably just stress but i'm becoming increasingly anxious about the transition to pitt. its not that i want to be in philly, or even in holland. i'm just thinking realistically about proximity, about how i have no money and no job, about relationshipfriendship dynamics, about who even wants to live communally anymore, and what that means, and will we all just fall into nuc holes anyways(nuclear black holes), etc etc etc.
i got all riled up in class last night and on the phone with jacob and then stephen. and am questioning everything about everything. it felt good to be understood and mutual about passions, but its also things i have a hard time laying down and having peace about.
and i have to come back to philly on the 21st of may to go to my $646 dollar parking ticket hearing.
its times like this that escaping to the harbor or the woods with red or honduras with nina looks better and better.