Good Byes are Hard
Heya Everyone. That is actually the second time I've named an entry that before. The first time was when I was leaving for Louisiana. But this time it's Jason that's leaving. It may only be for 13 weeks, but it's still going to be hard. Although I know it is to better himself and to brighten his future.
He's leaving for the Marines, well today actually. It's going to be hard because he's the guy I talk to the most and ask for advice the most out of everyone I know. It will be harder on others more so than myself, but I'm still really going to miss him. I have just felt very much alone for a little while now, and I'm not letting too many people into my world at the moment. Anyway I know you'll probably never read this, but... I love you man and stay strong down there and kick some ass. Just like a Michigan Playa should!
I'm going to make this entry longer than I expected, but I just need to let loose a little bit. I have a tendency to set myself up for disappointment at times. And in the current mind set I'm in it is sure to happen again with certain things. My best friend is gone, I don't have a significant other, and well the girl I "like" it's a lot more complicated than I wish it was. That is ok, but that still doesn't help my case of momentary loneliness. I've always been an optimist and I know that won't last too long though. Everything happens for a reason...
I'm trying to do something that I have always tried to do but it has never really worked out the way I wanted it to before. That is put someone's feelings and needs completely over my own without really expecting anything in return. Some may say that is unhealthy, they may be right in some ways. But others may say that is just and very thoughtful if it is really needed. Which I think it is. People experience things in their lives where they need other people's help to get over and help them stay strong and get back to where they want to be again. I know I have experienced that for one. And it is just good to have someone there whenever you need them.
A little more in depth, I've been confused about a few things lately. I really shouldn't be, but maybe I should be. I've just never felt this way about someone else before. There is just so much we have in common, and everything seems right but at the same time it isn't. The circumstances were kind of messed up to begin with. I've been in love before and been hurt by love. This, well, it's something deep because I feel something deep, but it isn't love for sure. It's hard for me to give into love now-a-days and I'm surely not going to jump into it again. Especially if the other person is well confused as I am, I think. But we both know what is best for now, and we'll leave it at that. I'm here for you no matter what though, that won't change. And I know you know that. Well time for bed, until next time have fun and God Bless. =)
He's leaving for the Marines, well today actually. It's going to be hard because he's the guy I talk to the most and ask for advice the most out of everyone I know. It will be harder on others more so than myself, but I'm still really going to miss him. I have just felt very much alone for a little while now, and I'm not letting too many people into my world at the moment. Anyway I know you'll probably never read this, but... I love you man and stay strong down there and kick some ass. Just like a Michigan Playa should!
I'm going to make this entry longer than I expected, but I just need to let loose a little bit. I have a tendency to set myself up for disappointment at times. And in the current mind set I'm in it is sure to happen again with certain things. My best friend is gone, I don't have a significant other, and well the girl I "like" it's a lot more complicated than I wish it was. That is ok, but that still doesn't help my case of momentary loneliness. I've always been an optimist and I know that won't last too long though. Everything happens for a reason...
I'm trying to do something that I have always tried to do but it has never really worked out the way I wanted it to before. That is put someone's feelings and needs completely over my own without really expecting anything in return. Some may say that is unhealthy, they may be right in some ways. But others may say that is just and very thoughtful if it is really needed. Which I think it is. People experience things in their lives where they need other people's help to get over and help them stay strong and get back to where they want to be again. I know I have experienced that for one. And it is just good to have someone there whenever you need them.
A little more in depth, I've been confused about a few things lately. I really shouldn't be, but maybe I should be. I've just never felt this way about someone else before. There is just so much we have in common, and everything seems right but at the same time it isn't. The circumstances were kind of messed up to begin with. I've been in love before and been hurt by love. This, well, it's something deep because I feel something deep, but it isn't love for sure. It's hard for me to give into love now-a-days and I'm surely not going to jump into it again. Especially if the other person is well confused as I am, I think. But we both know what is best for now, and we'll leave it at that. I'm here for you no matter what though, that won't change. And I know you know that. Well time for bed, until next time have fun and God Bless. =)