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I hadn't spoken to Alex in nearly two weeks until today. Everything was going just fine and then all of a sudden it hit me and I couldn't control myself at work. I broke down and called him.
I think watching the home movies is what triggered my emotional break down. I love his cousins but I need to tell them that I can't see that shit anymore. I want to be able to just move on and not have things be awkward because it's really hard not to be friends with someone I've been so close to for over three years... Especially since I'm so close to his family. It wouldn't be hard to be friends if he hadn't decided to hit on some home-schooled sixteen year old. God it's so gross.
I've been keeping myself very busy lately so that I don't have to think about what's happened. I guess I just realized that nothing is going to be the same again and it's more difficult to accept than I thought it would be.
ANYWAY, I think Travis is going to move in with me in June. It will be a lot less lonely in my little pool house once I have a roommate.
I think watching the home movies is what triggered my emotional break down. I love his cousins but I need to tell them that I can't see that shit anymore. I want to be able to just move on and not have things be awkward because it's really hard not to be friends with someone I've been so close to for over three years... Especially since I'm so close to his family. It wouldn't be hard to be friends if he hadn't decided to hit on some home-schooled sixteen year old. God it's so gross.
I've been keeping myself very busy lately so that I don't have to think about what's happened. I guess I just realized that nothing is going to be the same again and it's more difficult to accept than I thought it would be.
ANYWAY, I think Travis is going to move in with me in June. It will be a lot less lonely in my little pool house once I have a roommate.