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how come its always my fault. when i didnt really do anything in the first place everything is my fault. its my fault my mom is in debt and owns the salon. no. you bought the salon cuz you didnt want it to be taken over by a bank or someone worse. impulsive buyer. and your in debt because you keep trying to do shit that you know you dont have the money for, ie try to make aunt jenny happy. itll never happen! so why bother blaming everything on someone else when its you whos creating your own problem.
if you ever go into debt, dont even think about blaming another person. you are in debt. it is your problem. not your spouse, not your child, not anyone but you. i am in debt becuase i opened credit cards when i knew i shouldnt and agreed to have a roomate when i definatly knew i shouldnt and because when im stressed out, which is 360 days of the year, i tend to shop or drive which both cost money. so. therefore. that is my fault and! i know that if i work my ass off ill eventually get out of it. it will take time but it will happen.
im fucking sick of my mom and her ways of answering for me and then blaming me for it. contrary to belief i didnt ask for alot of the stuff i have. in fact im absolutly fine with working and getting what i can afford. but! my mom had diff plans for me. she decided when i was a baby that i was going to be the "make up" for what she didnt have. yeah. let me tell you all the shit she wanted, i dont. now please, dont get me wrong its not that i dont appreciate it, its just that i realllllllly dont need it and i know that. and im okay with that. i dont need the gucci and prada shit (not that i have it cuz i really dont want it...) why? who am i trying to show off too? ill stick with my disney purse that no one that i know has. or my target bag that other people may have, but its mine and they dont have whats in it. and i fucking hate the fact that everryyyyyy freaking time we argue im the bitch im the stinge im the whatever. not you, me. and how dissapointed she is in me. right. the one who works 2 jobs and! goes to school. oookay.
the saddest part is when i have kids its gonna be alot worse.....