overwhelmed.

[nudelove]

I'm having doubts about whether I'm in the right course. I'm not sure if I have the emotional capacity to deal with people everyday. One of my lecturer said that when clients see us, they are most probably at the lowest point of their lives. Up till now, that statement stayed with me and really got me thinking about whether this is what I really want and whether I'm strong enough to deal with it. I wish to believe that I am strong and I can deal with this in the most matured way possible. But the thought of going home everyday after work with a heavy heart sounds not too promising. I'm just waiting for clinicals and see how clinicals go. I hope everything turns out well.

Him. Today somehow I kept thinking about him. Like I miss him quite alot today somehow. I don't even know why. It's not like anything reminded me of him. But he just kept popping out in my heart. I believe that he is still hidden in the back of my mind. I want to go back to the way it used to be but I know that it's not going to be all that good for me. Neither is it for him. But I still want him back. It's weird sometimes. I can be rational and reason with myself why we shouldn't get back together but my heart says I need him back in my life. I don't know man. Sometimes I don't even understand myself. I wish I could tear myself apart and dig him out so that he disappears from me. But we all know that's not possible. Oh wells. Sometimes life is just like that right?

I hope I sleep before midnight today. I want to sleep before midnight everyday if possible. Have to go do my tutorial. Cerebrum? HAHA brain shit.