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the fog is so thick i can barely see the road curving out in front of me. there is a street light on my street that goes off every single time i drive by it and it is sort of like a hello, or a goodbye in my opinion. the older i got the more i expected to grow. the older you got, the more i expected you to grow. but now i just see all of my friends as legless, crawling around on the floor in the dark searching for something but always finding the same thing. and it's not the light switch. it's mostly just more words to fill their empty mouths or shove behind their teeth or weigh their tongue down with. and some times words can be fucking powerful but lately they just work their way into my ears and i've grown tired of listening or trying to hold substance to things that are meaningless or trying to constantly remind myself that some where some thing means some thing. i am not any one to judge but i still constantly observe the lifelessness and laziness that builds itself up behind their eyes and hope that i can wake up in ten years and not see anything like that. i like all of the christmas lights that blur against my windshield everywhere, i like how it brightens these dark neighborhoods up even for just a second.