Happy Halloween
I keep having daily mini-crisis' over St. Petersburg. It's very abnormal, because going there is supposed to feel so comforting. Maybe it has something to do with the nightmarish dreams I keep having about my friends. I've been having them every single night for a week, and when I wake up, I have this feeling of dread that stays hidden through out the day until I think about one of my friends and I suddenly feel extremly panicked. No one really keeps in touch with me, or as much as I'd like them to, so who knows if my fear is completely unnecessary or not? I feel like I'm stuck in pergatory, once again. I'm not fully here, and I'm not there and it's a terrible feeling. Why can't I be spread evenly across both? I miss my friends very much, and I need some reassurance from them this weekend, but I've been feeling so scared that something bad is going to happen and that I'll be extremely let down. I can't tell if I'm paranoid or not, because I have the tendency to get extremely worried about nothing and make mountains out of mole hills. But it's these dreams, man, these dreams...
but hopefully the drunken, craziness of my first Tallahassee Halloween will take my mind off of this until I actually have to confront St. Petersburg this weekend.
but hopefully the drunken, craziness of my first Tallahassee Halloween will take my mind off of this until I actually have to confront St. Petersburg this weekend.