Cannot find support leaning on a broken fence.

Oct 15, 2003 00:24

Exploring my mind for something more to state than the obvious, the sun's coming up from a three hour drive, 200 miles and counting, with nothing to show - less the condemning glares that I've yet to hold myself in account for. I wish people would resolve their own issues before they decide to criticize someone else's decisions my own. I quit my job because I felt that I wasn't living up to my own expectations; and when you've got something to prove, there's nothing greater than a challenge. I need to feel afraid again... to feel unsure. This is what coerces me to better myself. It's not a matter of inadequacy, as some find it so necessary to believe. I hate feeling as if I have failed others, but at the same time, it's long past due for me to look out for myself for once. And hopefully I have made the right decision this time.

It's really not so easy having your mind, your heart, and your past scattered so inconveniently amidst the eastern side of the nation. I guess I've reached a crossroad, and can't quite figure out where I belong anymore. This is is what I am struggling to understand.

On a completely unrelated note, I bleached my hair again.


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