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HAs it ever seemed like everything you've done and will ever do is going wrong and that you are stuck spinning in an endless cycle? I don't know what i'm doing and i can't remember what i did last week, all my days are blending into one very very VERY LONG YEAR and yet i feel somewhat apathetic about it all. I've written two small collections of short stories and poems in the last year or so and rereading them is like entering the mind of either an extremely profound person or an extremely apathetic person...i don't know what i am anymore and it's all washing me down endless streams of "what's wrong with me? and why didn't this work out?"
....you have no idea what i'm talking about and i understand... i guess that this was more for me than you and i don't really know how to explain it you so i wont try. I've changed so drastically over the few years that to some extent i'm afraid of what i could be capable of if i had change for the worst...useless ramblings.
I found a few friends on thefacebook.com...maybe i could meet them in person when they come back to boston/NH...if they ever come back.
"I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody."- Bill Cosby.
I fear that i'm beinning to fail.
....you have no idea what i'm talking about and i understand... i guess that this was more for me than you and i don't really know how to explain it you so i wont try. I've changed so drastically over the few years that to some extent i'm afraid of what i could be capable of if i had change for the worst...useless ramblings.
I found a few friends on thefacebook.com...maybe i could meet them in person when they come back to boston/NH...if they ever come back.
"I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody."- Bill Cosby.
I fear that i'm beinning to fail.