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hmmm lets see okay nothing much has happened latly at least nothing to interesting. Oh other than then the fact that i am no longer going to try so hard when it comes to life situations. me tryyinig to analyze everything is going to make me sick so i am just gonna sit back relax and see how things go. Life is already hard enough for me I already have one of the most important people in my life leaving me . I don't think I can possibly take anymore it's to much for me to keep up honestly I am sort of tierd of being a strong person all i really want to do is just cry I don't want joe to leave I want him to stay with me. Honestly he is the only guy let me correct that Man in my Life that is there for me when i need him it is just gonna feel funny for a while having so for away. But then again he went away to boot camp and I was fine maybe because i knew that he was coming back home but this one is permanate. uggh I really don't want to be all sappy and junk but i don't know I can't help it. can't help but feel so helpless and needy at the same time. So I am going to force myself to be stronger atleast for my sake and joes sake too cause he is not just leaving me but the rest of the family to move to a place all alone w/ no family there for him to lean on when times are hard so there goes a good reason to keep it all together.Forget about all the other things I'll just see what happens with everything else. In a matter of fact I think that I am tyring to hard when it comes to everything else. If something is suppose to happen it will happen I hope. Ha the way how things are going in my life I would not be surprised if things didn't work out