I decided to make one last entry before I retire for the night
The earlier entry was a... poem I guess you could call it. It came to me while I was outside, admiring the night sky.
Today has been an odd day to put it lightly. I'm not completely sure of what caused it or the events leading up to it, but I had what some would call an epiphany. I realized at long last what was the cause of my depression. It had nothing to do with lost loves, near death experiences, or even my recent brush with the law. It was the loss of my muse.
I determined that my muse was the true source of my happiness, and it had left me nearly two years ago. I can' t really say what caused it to leave, my assumption at the moment is I got to used to the daily routine of life, and became numb to the world's ways. The wonderful thing is, that, through my epiphany, I have regained my muse.... and along with it, my happiness.
My nerves seem to be much calmer now, I'm am not "fidgity" as I was before. I am truly happy, for the first time in what seems as many ages. This is not the hyper, giddy, "jump around" feeling that so many tend to associate with happiness, this is true, deep, happiness.... peace.... serenity.....
Perhaps I can get a good night's sleep....
Goodnight, and pleasant dreams to all.
Today has been an odd day to put it lightly. I'm not completely sure of what caused it or the events leading up to it, but I had what some would call an epiphany. I realized at long last what was the cause of my depression. It had nothing to do with lost loves, near death experiences, or even my recent brush with the law. It was the loss of my muse.
I determined that my muse was the true source of my happiness, and it had left me nearly two years ago. I can' t really say what caused it to leave, my assumption at the moment is I got to used to the daily routine of life, and became numb to the world's ways. The wonderful thing is, that, through my epiphany, I have regained my muse.... and along with it, my happiness.
My nerves seem to be much calmer now, I'm am not "fidgity" as I was before. I am truly happy, for the first time in what seems as many ages. This is not the hyper, giddy, "jump around" feeling that so many tend to associate with happiness, this is true, deep, happiness.... peace.... serenity.....
Perhaps I can get a good night's sleep....
Goodnight, and pleasant dreams to all.