NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
god I so do not want to make an entry
TOOO DEEPRESSED....
but I will for the sake of ashums...
Ash is leaving me forever, never to return, completly abandoning me. *cries pitifully* She leaves saturday for Calgary, for school. I didn't think it would hit me so hard, but it's worse then I could ever imagine. I am going to miss her so much, Over our last few years together I've grown so attached to her. It just doesn't feel fair. I have found there are few people in this world who care about me in the same respects I care about them, without some selfishness lurking in their darker side, Ash is just one of those people. I want so badly to be supportive, not to be selfish about it, it's so hard, I just want her to be here. I'm sorry ash, I really don't mean to make this harder on you. I forsee tears on the horizon.
But of all bad there will be good. I will make a huge effort to call her more often, and I want to send her stuff in the mail all the time (living in a post office I have that luxury) I know how much ash loves getting random crap in the mail. I want to somehow comfort her, and help her through this, because as scary as this must be for me, it must be humongously crap pants scary for ash. GOD HATES US, that must be it.
I'm not just frustrated with that... I want my art block to be over.... I have tried to color in Adobe.. ugh I'm so tired
See the frustration; BAH
and I have yet to finish the border on the baby's room... so close to finishing, yet so lazy
plus I've been sick again this week.. will it never end
but on a brighter note, I am getting my tooth fixed tomorrow.. I hope, that is if my daddies dental insurance will pay me through. Lets all hope a big hope for Cindy's broken tooth, because it is so utterly painful now. poo
well thats my bitchfest for the evening... tune in next time for so more happy news :)
TOOO DEEPRESSED....
but I will for the sake of ashums...
Ash is leaving me forever, never to return, completly abandoning me. *cries pitifully* She leaves saturday for Calgary, for school. I didn't think it would hit me so hard, but it's worse then I could ever imagine. I am going to miss her so much, Over our last few years together I've grown so attached to her. It just doesn't feel fair. I have found there are few people in this world who care about me in the same respects I care about them, without some selfishness lurking in their darker side, Ash is just one of those people. I want so badly to be supportive, not to be selfish about it, it's so hard, I just want her to be here. I'm sorry ash, I really don't mean to make this harder on you. I forsee tears on the horizon.
But of all bad there will be good. I will make a huge effort to call her more often, and I want to send her stuff in the mail all the time (living in a post office I have that luxury) I know how much ash loves getting random crap in the mail. I want to somehow comfort her, and help her through this, because as scary as this must be for me, it must be humongously crap pants scary for ash. GOD HATES US, that must be it.
I'm not just frustrated with that... I want my art block to be over.... I have tried to color in Adobe.. ugh I'm so tired
See the frustration; BAH
and I have yet to finish the border on the baby's room... so close to finishing, yet so lazy
plus I've been sick again this week.. will it never end
but on a brighter note, I am getting my tooth fixed tomorrow.. I hope, that is if my daddies dental insurance will pay me through. Lets all hope a big hope for Cindy's broken tooth, because it is so utterly painful now. poo
well thats my bitchfest for the evening... tune in next time for so more happy news :)