*screams in frustration* I can NOT believe it..........
I've got to post about this, as it's been driving me nuts. Tues afternoon at Francis house they showed a movie from the gay and lesbian film festival - it was called Bug Chasers.
The whole movie revolves around guys that WANT to become HIV positive (bug chasers) and guys that purposely infected them (gift givers).
Has everyone gone insane? One guy talks about how he's happy he's positive (he held a sex party to make sure he became positive) so that he did not have to 'worry about it'. Whats up with that? Do people not realize that once you become HIV positive all you have left is worry, about the drugs and how they'll effect you, the disease and what it'll do to you, the future and what your life will be like, while trying to battle with something that there is no cure for..........I just could not, and CAN NOT accept that any sane person would think like that.
The second one was a kid that at 19 felt he just couldnt 'fit in' unless he was positive, so after a time chatting on line, etc he found someone to have sex with that would infect him. AT 19......WTF is that all about, the idea that anyone would sanely say that ANYONE's acceptance was worth a life time of the misery caused by living with HIV.......has everyones self respect gone out the window? They jumped forward a year, and this kid broke down in tears, cause now it's starting to hit home - my heart weeped for him, he had no idea - it's not an excuse, but he was young and dumb..........what I dont get is how the ASSHOLE that knowingly infected him can live with himself.
I think everyone has lost the idea that this is a bad thing - that this is something that is cool, or OK - IT's NOT. One guy in the film mentioned the fact that they have to be careful so that they dont hurt the feelings of the HIV positive people. You know what HURT MY FUCKING FEELINGS - so long as it means THIS MADNESS ENDS.
Currently 2 teens and hour, every hour of every day becomes HIV positive - thats 48 kids a day, 336 a week, 1,344 a month, 17, 472 a year........
Start thinking about it, what kind of future is there if only 50% of the 20 - 25 yr population is positive in the next 5 years ( and at the rate of growth it'll be more then that). I dont care what nice spin any fuckin crack whore tries to but on it - this is something that will at some point take your life, either directly, or through some other opertunistic disease. It's still a DEATH SENTENCE no matter how anyone tries to spin it. Sure you may live 10, 20, 30 years with it. However that time is spent with doctors, medications that have more side effect then 'sides' served at McDonalds in a year. I know this is not a 'popular' subject, but come one people, we need to wake up. a moments gratification while looking for a moment of acceptance, is NOT WORTH YOUR LIFE.
*deep sigh*
ok ok, I'll get off my soap box now - and I know some will not be happy with this post - but I had to say / do / express something after seeing that movie.
Long life, good fortune to you and yours.
n
"The night is long, and silent as I stand my vigil.
The days light forgotten, as under the stars I
stand and ponder life, love, and innocence lost."
The whole movie revolves around guys that WANT to become HIV positive (bug chasers) and guys that purposely infected them (gift givers).
Has everyone gone insane? One guy talks about how he's happy he's positive (he held a sex party to make sure he became positive) so that he did not have to 'worry about it'. Whats up with that? Do people not realize that once you become HIV positive all you have left is worry, about the drugs and how they'll effect you, the disease and what it'll do to you, the future and what your life will be like, while trying to battle with something that there is no cure for..........I just could not, and CAN NOT accept that any sane person would think like that.
The second one was a kid that at 19 felt he just couldnt 'fit in' unless he was positive, so after a time chatting on line, etc he found someone to have sex with that would infect him. AT 19......WTF is that all about, the idea that anyone would sanely say that ANYONE's acceptance was worth a life time of the misery caused by living with HIV.......has everyones self respect gone out the window? They jumped forward a year, and this kid broke down in tears, cause now it's starting to hit home - my heart weeped for him, he had no idea - it's not an excuse, but he was young and dumb..........what I dont get is how the ASSHOLE that knowingly infected him can live with himself.
I think everyone has lost the idea that this is a bad thing - that this is something that is cool, or OK - IT's NOT. One guy in the film mentioned the fact that they have to be careful so that they dont hurt the feelings of the HIV positive people. You know what HURT MY FUCKING FEELINGS - so long as it means THIS MADNESS ENDS.
Currently 2 teens and hour, every hour of every day becomes HIV positive - thats 48 kids a day, 336 a week, 1,344 a month, 17, 472 a year........
Start thinking about it, what kind of future is there if only 50% of the 20 - 25 yr population is positive in the next 5 years ( and at the rate of growth it'll be more then that). I dont care what nice spin any fuckin crack whore tries to but on it - this is something that will at some point take your life, either directly, or through some other opertunistic disease. It's still a DEATH SENTENCE no matter how anyone tries to spin it. Sure you may live 10, 20, 30 years with it. However that time is spent with doctors, medications that have more side effect then 'sides' served at McDonalds in a year. I know this is not a 'popular' subject, but come one people, we need to wake up. a moments gratification while looking for a moment of acceptance, is NOT WORTH YOUR LIFE.
*deep sigh*
ok ok, I'll get off my soap box now - and I know some will not be happy with this post - but I had to say / do / express something after seeing that movie.
Long life, good fortune to you and yours.
n
"The night is long, and silent as I stand my vigil.
The days light forgotten, as under the stars I
stand and ponder life, love, and innocence lost."