Merlin Big Bang: Playlist (contains story spoilers)
Warning: contains story spoilers
Thanks to pkai7 for the amazing coverart. <3
1. 10,000 Maniacs - These Are Days
Then you’ll know how it was meant to be
See the signs and know their meaning
It was always in the drawing that the colours took shape: orange became flame, blue became sky, the gold and red some sort of emblem and Merlin's dream-world turned from a shade into actual, tangible things.
2. VAST- Thrown Away
Now I'm left like a flag atop a moon
Precious one, you have abandoned me
Their bodies slide together, miles of skin slick with sweat, and Merlin wants to say, "Take me, all of me, anything. I'm yours, my lord."
3. Fleetwood Mac - The Chain
And if you don't love me now
You will never love me again
I can still hear you saying you would never break the chain
He keeps staring at the picture, at Arthur's full-throated laugh, the gaudy ring he wears on his left hand. He has a brief, oddly vivid image of that ring: smooth and cold against his skin, as Arthur strokes his hand over Merlin's cheek. He leans in and bites at Gwaine's jaw to distract himself, scraping teeth over stubble, but he can't unsee the image and it feels like a punch of lust to his gut.
4. Florence and the Machine - Howl
My fingers claw your skin, try to tear my way in
You are the moon that breaks the night for which I have to howl
Arthur puts his hand out to Merlin, and when their hands touch it feels like a current through his whole body. Merlin whispers, "your highness," and it makes Arthur jump back as if he's been burned. It feels so shockingly familiar, the warmth of Arthur's skin against his, the uttering of the honorific. It doesn't feel wrong, and yet Merlin doesn't know why he said it at all.
5. Tanita Tikaram - Twist In My Sobriety
In the morning when I wipe my brow
Wipe the miles away
I like to think I can be so willed
And never do what you say
Merlin takes a long, slow drag. He doesn't smoke very often, and only ever if he's drinking. But he needs it right now. Needs it to ground himself, and remind himself of who he is and who they are.
6. Vienna Teng - Watershed
Now I will unsettle the ground beneath you
Send my waters ashore
Creep into your bed
Find you in every corner
"I know what you taste like," Arthur whispers, "and you're lying to yourself if you say you don't know why. See, I remember you, Merlin. I've been remembering quite a lot, actually. And I know you have, too. I can see it on your face every time you look at me."
7. Mumford and Sons - White Blank Page
Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life
Oh Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life
Arthur's touching him everywhere, fingers skating over his lips, hands on his cheeks, in his hair, just grabbing at him like he can't decide where he wants to touch him the most.
8. Peter Gabriel - Here Comes the Flood
And if we break before the dawn,
they'll use up what we used to be.
Arthur puts out his hand to touch him, but Merlin flinches away. He can't do this, can't feel Arthur touching him or he won't be able to walk away.
9. The Cure - Burn
Sleep a while you must be tired...
But every night I burn
Every night I call your name
But the need doesn't go away, and when he tries to sleep, it spreads through his body from the tips of his fingers to his elbows. Merlin's never needed like this before, it's pure and frightening and like it used to be when he had magic coursing through his body. He isn't in control of this at all.
10. Portishead - Roads
Ohh, can't anybody see
We've got a war to fight
Never found our way
Regardless of what they say
"I'll find you," Arthur whispers into his neck, and kisses him there. "You hear me, Merlin? I will find you."
11. Florence and the Machine - Cosmic Love
The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
He inhales sharply, and something flashes across his face that looks an awful lot like abandon, and then he's pushing Merlin into the wall with his hips, crushing his mouth against his and kissing him, hard and frantic, his hands on Merlin's cheeks, holding him still for Arthur to kiss deeper and deeper.
12. Adele - Hometown Glory
Round my hometown
Memories are fresh
Round my hometown
Ooh the people I've met
Merlin kisses him again. It's like he's come home.
13. My Skin - Natalie Merchant
They say that promises
Sweeten the blow
But I don't need them
No, I don't need them
What do you know about what's right, he wants to say. Since when did you ever do the right thing? When you betrayed us? When you tortured me for days? When you stood back and watched your brother die?
14. Sleeping at Last - Watermark
You were carved out of the earth
Safe and sound in your second birth
Gravity has tied your ankle to the shore
As a lighthouse tamed the endless ocean war
He doesn't want to have to hide it any more. It's exhausting having to try and maintain the facade when all he wants to do is shout from the rooftops that he loves Arthur Pendragon.
15. Ryan Adams - So Alive
In your arms I'd stay
Forever if I could
Forever if I may
Keeps me in your thoughts, don't disappear
"You are demented, you know that?" Merlin breathes against his lips. "As if I would ever walk away from you, even if I could, you complete and utter tosser. Not even you dying could make me choose anyone over you. Do we need to discuss your abandonment issues? Or should we just get straight to the shagging?"
16. Maurissa Tanchereon & Jed Whedon - Remains
Burn down my home
My memories hardened and bright as chrome
Good times escape
While every mistake seems to be caught on tape
Merlin doesn't have flashbacks to the life they shared before, now. He doesn't dream of Camelot either asleep or awake, and neither does Arthur.
Download entire soundtrack including coverart here.
pkai7 has posted her cover art here.
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