Unsure of what to do
I am unsure of what to do or who to even talk to at this point. My grandmother has been refusing to eat lately, even though she is well enough to sit in a wheelchair again and go places around the healthcare center she is gradually going downhill. My mother is upset about it since she is afraid she is losing her. She has been having dreams about my grandfather and my grandmother and he is singing to her and she is laughing like she used to. She is afraid that my grandfather is calling her. My grandfather died several years ago and my grandmother is the only grandparent I have left up here. The other two are down in Florida and I barely see them. I'm unsure of who to talk to about this anymore. I try to keep telling myself to just not think about it a lot or that she'll get better but it's hard when she just gets worse every week. It's like she doesn't want to live anymore. I don't know what to do anymore. I just need something to get my mind off of this for a while but nothing seems to be working.
This part of the semester is not going so well for me. My life seems to be going downwards with friends. I am still keeping up with school work and work but lately I don't feel like going to football practice or even bellydancing. I still go just so I don't miss out on anything. I feel like I am being pushed away a bit by my family and being pushed away a bit by my closest friends. I just want this semester to end so I can just start all over again next semester. I hate to lose any of the friends that I have since the two semesters that I've been here but........I don't know what to say. I guess it's for the best. Hopefully next semester will be better. I am dreading the summer due to work and summer courses. Who knows if I'll see anyone over the summer since I'm slowly getting tired of driving everywhere just to see some people. Hopefully the summer goes well too.....
This part of the semester is not going so well for me. My life seems to be going downwards with friends. I am still keeping up with school work and work but lately I don't feel like going to football practice or even bellydancing. I still go just so I don't miss out on anything. I feel like I am being pushed away a bit by my family and being pushed away a bit by my closest friends. I just want this semester to end so I can just start all over again next semester. I hate to lose any of the friends that I have since the two semesters that I've been here but........I don't know what to say. I guess it's for the best. Hopefully next semester will be better. I am dreading the summer due to work and summer courses. Who knows if I'll see anyone over the summer since I'm slowly getting tired of driving everywhere just to see some people. Hopefully the summer goes well too.....