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This week has started off bad. I find out on the last day of my trip in DC that my friend has stomach cancer. I can't even think about it without crying. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to be here right now. I don't want to go to class. I just want to go somewhere and cry until I can't cry anymore. I want to go home. I want to go somewhere where no one can find me. Today I just want to be left alone. I'm so stressed out and depressed over this situation that I feel like I'm taking my anger out on people who are close to me. I don't want to do that. I don't want to hurt the people I care about. I want to be there for them when they need me but right now I can't. I think I may just got home some time soon to think about things or just take a walk somewhere. Right now I don't want to be here. I want to stop thinking. I want to be happy like I was before. Even now my eyes are tearing up, and I have no tissues left. I am tired, exhausted, depressed - all rolled into one. Someone please make it all go away.
I think about the past and how I could of changed some of the things I've said. I have a gap between me and one of my best friends that I practically grew up with. I can't help but cry since I feel like I was never there for her. And now she has stomach cancer. I don't want to think about her not being here anymore. I know that I was mad at her but that didn't stop me from being her friend. I just wish things were different between us. I think about 2nd grade and all the fun that we had. Trips to Canada, chorus concerts, anime boston and new jersey, sleep overs, bomb threat at the middle school when we just stayed at her house and shot water guns at the cars driving by. I enjoyed those days and I wish we could do them again.
I think I may go home today and see if I can get excused from classes since I can't be here anymore. I barely made it through my first two classes without my eyes tearing up and the powerpoint screen becoming blurry. I just want to say I'm sorry to anyone that I took my anger out on.
Goodbye
I think about the past and how I could of changed some of the things I've said. I have a gap between me and one of my best friends that I practically grew up with. I can't help but cry since I feel like I was never there for her. And now she has stomach cancer. I don't want to think about her not being here anymore. I know that I was mad at her but that didn't stop me from being her friend. I just wish things were different between us. I think about 2nd grade and all the fun that we had. Trips to Canada, chorus concerts, anime boston and new jersey, sleep overs, bomb threat at the middle school when we just stayed at her house and shot water guns at the cars driving by. I enjoyed those days and I wish we could do them again.
I think I may go home today and see if I can get excused from classes since I can't be here anymore. I barely made it through my first two classes without my eyes tearing up and the powerpoint screen becoming blurry. I just want to say I'm sorry to anyone that I took my anger out on.
Goodbye