Jan 26, 2005 21:56
"shotgun blast into the face of deceit"
i wish i could just use a shotgun and blow ppls heads off. like duck hunt. blow them to high hell. that be funny to me. maybe im weird.
well im all types of busy and crazy and cynical and i think im going insane. i just dont give a fuck anymore. pessimistic for now and just plain antsy for the future. i just....rum too tum dee pow reelowshrilanka. random jibberish. i wish i could channel all my negative and weird energy into something useful like music or art.or maybe find something to make it go away. i think thats one thing that could make me happy, but theres too big a chance of getting jewed over my someone and ill prolly have a heart eruption and die before then. oh well hope its not messy.
before i go i think i have somethings to say, but iono if i should.... well its better to keep my big mouth shut in this instance i guess, i learned that lesson already. oh well i need to do some homework. fuck homework. i think ima just say fuck it one good time and not do it. or find somone to copy off of. iono. i need sleep. sleep makes me feel good. but nothing makes me feel that good anymore, i just live a life of denial. or maybe im just confused and have too many hormones. thats it. im just weirded.