alone
i cant make up my mind.
i long for a companion, but am dissatisfied with too many things.
i yearn to be in love again, i want to be loved as well.
to be alone is convenient, and safe in some aspects...but its not something
that should be permanent. i really miss having someone special...
just to have someone that u can talk to, someone to hold, to love.
i dont wanna be tricked again into thinking i have what i want or that im wanted,
love is blind and that blindness leaves a trail of destruction that no one gets over easily (and some not at all). at the same time lust doesnt help either. however i dont even know if i can ever be that blind again. in a perfect world that blindness wouldnt matter because the person u put trust in would have ur back... thats been proven time and time again with many instances that that wont happen...and that this world is far from perfect, or even nice.
i try to hold on to the good things, few or multiple, the bad things always stand out more
because you dont have to protect urself from a good thing. i dont know what i want. i want someone.
but not just anyone. everyone has their needs (mine tend to be more physical) but everyone needs the same thing when it comes down to it. i just dont understand why no one can get this right. why cant two people be happy together for a substantial amount of time? i wish i could find someone that can fulfill my needs as i could do theirs. all thats needed is loyalty and love, but thats too hard to come by. fucking shame. just a shame.
this world that we live in and the games that we play with each other. im still searching for a purpose.
i feel im so close to happiness, from the inside. im surrounded on the outside with good things. but that never helped me be happy. who really is actually happy???
i long for a companion, but am dissatisfied with too many things.
i yearn to be in love again, i want to be loved as well.
to be alone is convenient, and safe in some aspects...but its not something
that should be permanent. i really miss having someone special...
just to have someone that u can talk to, someone to hold, to love.
i dont wanna be tricked again into thinking i have what i want or that im wanted,
love is blind and that blindness leaves a trail of destruction that no one gets over easily (and some not at all). at the same time lust doesnt help either. however i dont even know if i can ever be that blind again. in a perfect world that blindness wouldnt matter because the person u put trust in would have ur back... thats been proven time and time again with many instances that that wont happen...and that this world is far from perfect, or even nice.
i try to hold on to the good things, few or multiple, the bad things always stand out more
because you dont have to protect urself from a good thing. i dont know what i want. i want someone.
but not just anyone. everyone has their needs (mine tend to be more physical) but everyone needs the same thing when it comes down to it. i just dont understand why no one can get this right. why cant two people be happy together for a substantial amount of time? i wish i could find someone that can fulfill my needs as i could do theirs. all thats needed is loyalty and love, but thats too hard to come by. fucking shame. just a shame.
this world that we live in and the games that we play with each other. im still searching for a purpose.
i feel im so close to happiness, from the inside. im surrounded on the outside with good things. but that never helped me be happy. who really is actually happy???