dead
ah everythings dwindling down to a sweet silence and i love everytrhing about silence. its so tight to just be myself and actually be happy with it, and i feel whole in more ways than i ever have. im getting through alot but a lot of things are getting better. however, my gramma is still sick as a mofo, i went to see her yesterday with my great gramma. that was fun cuz old ppl are jsut funny sometimes even tho they smell funny. my gramma looked funny with my beanie on, she cracks me up. its kinda sad cuz i dunno if shell make it till christmas. i hate it when doctors tell u someone has longer to live than they really do. i just hope she makes it thru christmas, thats really all i want. yea other things are nice but theyre nothing to me... im just trying not to break like everyone else has in my family. i fig someone has to stay strong. and im usually the weak one so ill see how this works out.