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[ntoxicateddream]

I hate how I try to make the best of things, but it never lasts. I hate how I can never find a good thing, and keep it. I hate pretending like I'm okay. I hate not being able to sleep because my mind is set on overdrive. I hate how people change. I hate being the one everyone can talk to because it hurts. But I love being there to help because it

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*I LOVE YOU!!!!*

[fallen_endings]

I understand every feeling you wrote-I just never made a list...figured it wouldn't matter. I really wish there was that "Happiness in a Bottle", something more than words to help. Honestly, even though I miss the happy feeling...I like being depressed sometimes, it just seems so normal and comfortable. Although I'm pretty sure that's not the healthiest feeling to have, but whatever...it's kind of hard to think any different.-I love how you understand the things I say, How you're always there for me, How you always have the right things to say, How you help as much as you can, even if there isn't much to help with, How I can talk to you and trust you, How you're more than my best friend, but the older sister that I never got to have, How you listen and make me laugh when I'm depressed, How you care when you shouldn't, How you bothered to take the time to becoming my best friend when I know I can be difficult, How you never give up on me when everyone else-including myself does, How I don't have to pretend to be happy around you, How you understand me, sometimes more than myself, How can be convincing-whether it gets me in trouble or not, How you're spontaneous, makes things more fun, How you get me in trouble, How you're there when I've had too much to drink or smoke, How you know me so well...I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll always be here to return the favors, even if it includes catching you're puke...again. I couldn't be more thankful to know such a person as you and have the chance for you to be my bestfriend. <333 Liz

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[ntoxicateddream]

Thank you so much Liz. I really wish there was that "Happiness in a Bottle" too. And I know what you mean about feeling more comfortable depressed. I like being depressed more for the fact that it gets me thinking about life. And when I'm happy, well it really isn't happiness but a shell that my minds created to take a break from reality. I love how I can count on you for anything. I love how you are always there for me when I need you. I love how we became friends. I love how you don't hate my stupid ideas. How you always tell me what you really think. How you know exactly what I am talking about without me actually explaining. How you always cheer me up even when I thought it was a lost cause. I love your view on life. I love how you love all the trouble I get us in. How we get stranded in the middle of nowhere with people we don't know but we still have a good time. How we always know how the other one is feeling. And how you tell me everything will be okay even when I know I've done something wrong. How you are there to catch my puke. How you understand me when no one else does. How you are my BEST friend. I love you Liz!! Thank you for everything!!! <333