Things COULD be Better
Well well well...
Seems the tables have turned and Im feeling GREAT. Not really.. but I'm better than before. I swear yo if I had the chance to just go back in time, or be in two places at the same time so I can change everything I've done wrong or fix whatever I can... I swear my life would be perfect. =\ But obviously that can only be fulfilled in my fantasies... poor me... But other than that mumbo jumbo, everything is fine... things COULD get better, but it hasnt yet.... YET and I'm keeping my word that sooner or later things really could get better. I know it can. Just as long as you're in my life well goddam EVERYTHING is close to almost being perfect. You know... it makes me sick to my stomach to think that it's possible to have a trust for someone... not just any trust but a special trust that NObody can ever have... and in the matter of a minute it can all be broken all because of a silly, immature mistake. Well this shit has happened to me a million times and fucked me over and I still havent learned my lesson. Well then yes... I am naiive. But theres only so much shit that I can take and I swear on my fucked up life that I'm gonna learn from it and NOBODY will be trusted by me EVER! Nobody will ever live in that soft spot that I have in my heart ever again... nobody... not even you.
So this passed week has been great. Heather and Cristina and Brie... wow... we've all gotten closer and I'm lovin it. I wish I couldve found a way to pick my friends before than actually have to go through all this pain to finally find them. I love Cristina, I love Heather, and I love Brie... omg I love Brie. It's funny how we can make mistakes and it all gives us a better outcome, thinking the concenquences could be almost like death. I'm glad you can be such a forgiving person... what would I do without it?
-Emm