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Car Crashes.
I guess someone from my hometown died in a car crash. I didn´t know him, but I know his parents. Another one of my friends got in a car crash as well, and thankfully, everyone came out fine. Lastly, another friend says that a family relative was killed in a car crash. From so far away, I don´t know if it´s the same person as the first one...but what is it with these suddenly tragic moments of life and sometimes death. I get to thinking that, ¨If you´re strong enough, you can make it through all of life´s challenges and curveballs...and you WILL have the good, the bad, the horrible, and the moments of rapture. But if you live with a good attitude and outlook, then you shall reap the overall, positive benefits.¨ But now I don´t know. I´ve already wondered about that. this life thing... It´s so remarkably huge and weird and I don´t know shit about it. It´s just. hard.
please wear a seatbelt.
All of this on top of my already pensive mood kind of brings me down a little bit. I´m now having really a difficult time thinking of returning.... As Renata said, my struggle is nothing compared to what she´ll face. And I respect her for that. But this is real too. I really can´t wait to get back and see and be with and love my family and friends. But I´m fighting facing my thoughts about the future. Because that´s what I´ll face when I get back. Normal life again, which eventually leads to the future. That´s what this was, here in Mexico. A break. I needed it beyond anything else. My life needed it. But the transition of going back to reality and having to make decisions again, having things to do, and EVERYTHING ELSE! I´m not whining. Sorry if that´s how you see it.
It just makes me think.
I guess someone from my hometown died in a car crash. I didn´t know him, but I know his parents. Another one of my friends got in a car crash as well, and thankfully, everyone came out fine. Lastly, another friend says that a family relative was killed in a car crash. From so far away, I don´t know if it´s the same person as the first one...but what is it with these suddenly tragic moments of life and sometimes death. I get to thinking that, ¨If you´re strong enough, you can make it through all of life´s challenges and curveballs...and you WILL have the good, the bad, the horrible, and the moments of rapture. But if you live with a good attitude and outlook, then you shall reap the overall, positive benefits.¨ But now I don´t know. I´ve already wondered about that. this life thing... It´s so remarkably huge and weird and I don´t know shit about it. It´s just. hard.
please wear a seatbelt.
All of this on top of my already pensive mood kind of brings me down a little bit. I´m now having really a difficult time thinking of returning.... As Renata said, my struggle is nothing compared to what she´ll face. And I respect her for that. But this is real too. I really can´t wait to get back and see and be with and love my family and friends. But I´m fighting facing my thoughts about the future. Because that´s what I´ll face when I get back. Normal life again, which eventually leads to the future. That´s what this was, here in Mexico. A break. I needed it beyond anything else. My life needed it. But the transition of going back to reality and having to make decisions again, having things to do, and EVERYTHING ELSE! I´m not whining. Sorry if that´s how you see it.
It just makes me think.