why can't it be like the old days....

[nthngispromised]

Well...I saw Moe for a whole 2 minutes 2night. And he said a whole 3 words to me online. He hates me for real. I wish last year had NEVER happened with Shannon or Matt just because then things would still be fine with Moe and I. He jus thinks I'm a hoe and...so he acts retarded towards me and I HATE it soooooo much. I IMed him when I got back to my room and he jus came off all sarcastic and being an ass and then he didn't say anything...he prolly thinks I was over at G's doing shit with him which I most certainly was NOT doing...nooo way...so anyways, I was like well...i guess ur busy or u jus don't wanna talk to me so...and he didn't say anything so I was like mmk then goodnight and he's like peace. I was over at G's watching The Godfather and somebody knocks on the door and then all the sudden somebody flings open the window and is comin thru the damn blinds talkin bout yo open the door and scared the shit outta me. So G goes and opens the door and in comes Moe and he's like wut up mami...hey i kno you and goes right to the fridge and takes out some orange juice and is like yo ill buy this off you lol...G's like I don't want your money man just take it, I'll buy another one tomorrow so then off he goes back out the door and didn't say bye...to me at least. G's like what did he say...be careful? I'm like I dunno. If he did then yea...he doesn't like me cuz he thinks I was gon hook up G or something. Then I told G my Moe background in a nutshell and he's like and what did he say when he came here...hey i kno you...thats funny now that I got the background info. I'm like right. So I come back here and IM him like...do u always be jumpin thru peoples windows like that? you scrapped the crap outta me lol. He's like yeah. always. I'm like don't you know how to knock haha...you know I'm bein nice and friendly and normal in hopes maybe he'll finally be the same again but he didn't say anything so I'm like...I guess ur busy or u jus don't wanna talk to me so...still silence so I jus said goodnight and he said peace. Seeing him makes me just.....sad. I wish things were normal with us or that I at least get the chance to really to really talk to him before he leaves forever and ever. I'm really not sure that I will get that chance and if I do I'm not sure he'll even let me have it. He's sooo different...I mean he's still him but he's not...he's different. He was always so calm and stuff around me and all this and now he treats me jus like everybody else which I mean is good that he's cool with me like that but at the same time he can treat me like I'm jus anybody which is the NOT cool part. I need to go to sleep. I wish we were still cool so I coulda gone over there n stayed with him n watched a movie...that's what he said he was bout to do cuz u kno him...he don't sleep. And if this was this time last year I would be over there jus like I used to be. Sleepin in his big bed with his big legs n arms flopped all across me tryna sleep lol. I miss him more than anything in the world. I really do. And I pray for him everyday and I guess I can jus pray that things will stop being like this between us. I really love him God and I want the best for him and if we're not meant to be friends anymore than so be it but...ever since I met him I always thought of You more and I always thought he was like my angel in a way...I jus pray that our friendship be blessed so that it can be restored because I need him. And not even in a dumb way...I need him because I have ALWAYS felt he would lead me to You and now he's gone in a lot of ways. And I think we need each other to be completely honest and I don't have a reason why it's just a feeling and I've always felt this way even back when we first met and I thought he was kinda weird lol. I liked him but I didn't cuz he was pretty out there so I moreso didn't but I still felt it inside that he was going to be an important person Lord and I jus pray that we continue what we started. I feel like more and more is piling on top of me and tonight seein Moe kinda topped it off. Seeing him makes me miss him more than I already do. And it sucks because ...theres no good reason why it should be like that...its all a mystery...always has been.

*~Ashley~*

FINALLY.....here's my Moe for your viewing pleasure. There's his professional badass looking bball pic hahaha he's tryna act hard. Then there's a funny one of him and another back in the day when we were real cool and he was over here chillin.