Rape
I've discovered my passion in life. I want to murder rapists. I want to hang out in dark alleys, parks, bars, and college parties late at night were men typically corner innocent women and rape them, and I want to be there to prevent it from happening and to stab the mother fuckers that are trying to do it. Would anybody pay me to do this? I really want to.
This revelation was brought on because a student at my school was raped this weekend. At first I was a little skeptical b/c although I know there are women out there who have a few drinks and have consensual sex, then regret it later and cry rape. I don't like that there are, but it's the sad truth. These women make me sick, although every situation is different so I don't want to lump them all into this category. But after I heard more details about this incident I almost got sick. Apparently according to Newsday, the young girl was dancing with a guy who lured her outside of the party by taking her cell phone from her, then 2 other guys dragged her into another room and tied her down and raped her. Apparently these three were not students at the school, but then another 2 guys joined who were students. I'm not sure how true any of this is b/c it is all still "alleged" - but it still made me fucking sick to my stomach to think about it.
I said to a friend I want to find these assholes and fucking murder them, and he said to make me feel better, or just calm me down, they're in jail (well, 4 of them are). That doesn't comfort me. The penalty for rape (if they are found guilty) will not likely be that long. The woman who has been in the papers recently for being abducted and raped and tortured for 18yrs was taken by a man who was already convicted of abducting a woman, typing her down and raping her for 8 hours straight,. He was released early from jail (after about 2-5 years I believe) on parole. This is a horrible system. I want to believe in rehabilitation and that people can change, but sometimes I just can't. It's like Better safe than sorry, right? Let me kill the mother fuckers who brutally rape innocent women. Not the guys that are convicted for having sex with a drunken girl who said yes but regretted it later. There are moral problems with having sex with a drunk girl, but I don't think it should be illegal if she was awake and clearly consenting. I feel bad that men are accused of such a disgusting horrible act when they believed they were having consensual sex. But then there are the assholes that purposely get a woman drunk or drug her in order to obtain the drunken consent, so I guess it's just a huge gray area. Right now I'm referring to the brutal rapists who abduct women, tie them down, force themselves on her, the no gray area type of shit. How did that man get off on parole after doing that to a woman!? And then went on to abduct a young girl and rape her, and father two children with her. He should be killed.
I know all of my anger stems from my own experiences and my own problems coming to terms with what happened to me, but then again I still maintain what happened to me wasn't all that bad, especially considering what could have happened. I was very lucky. I was only forced to perform oral sex on a man, and I had willingly went on a date with him, got into his car and let things get to that point. I'm not saying I think it was my fault, although I guess I am. But when I compare myself to the innocent women who suffer brutal gang rapes, I just can't help but think it really was my fault. This is too deep of an LJ entry to be typing while I'm in class. At least I'm not a crier. I never cried over that bullshit that happened to me. I won't let myself. I'd rather be angry. It's a far superior emotion.
This revelation was brought on because a student at my school was raped this weekend. At first I was a little skeptical b/c although I know there are women out there who have a few drinks and have consensual sex, then regret it later and cry rape. I don't like that there are, but it's the sad truth. These women make me sick, although every situation is different so I don't want to lump them all into this category. But after I heard more details about this incident I almost got sick. Apparently according to Newsday, the young girl was dancing with a guy who lured her outside of the party by taking her cell phone from her, then 2 other guys dragged her into another room and tied her down and raped her. Apparently these three were not students at the school, but then another 2 guys joined who were students. I'm not sure how true any of this is b/c it is all still "alleged" - but it still made me fucking sick to my stomach to think about it.
I said to a friend I want to find these assholes and fucking murder them, and he said to make me feel better, or just calm me down, they're in jail (well, 4 of them are). That doesn't comfort me. The penalty for rape (if they are found guilty) will not likely be that long. The woman who has been in the papers recently for being abducted and raped and tortured for 18yrs was taken by a man who was already convicted of abducting a woman, typing her down and raping her for 8 hours straight,. He was released early from jail (after about 2-5 years I believe) on parole. This is a horrible system. I want to believe in rehabilitation and that people can change, but sometimes I just can't. It's like Better safe than sorry, right? Let me kill the mother fuckers who brutally rape innocent women. Not the guys that are convicted for having sex with a drunken girl who said yes but regretted it later. There are moral problems with having sex with a drunk girl, but I don't think it should be illegal if she was awake and clearly consenting. I feel bad that men are accused of such a disgusting horrible act when they believed they were having consensual sex. But then there are the assholes that purposely get a woman drunk or drug her in order to obtain the drunken consent, so I guess it's just a huge gray area. Right now I'm referring to the brutal rapists who abduct women, tie them down, force themselves on her, the no gray area type of shit. How did that man get off on parole after doing that to a woman!? And then went on to abduct a young girl and rape her, and father two children with her. He should be killed.
I know all of my anger stems from my own experiences and my own problems coming to terms with what happened to me, but then again I still maintain what happened to me wasn't all that bad, especially considering what could have happened. I was very lucky. I was only forced to perform oral sex on a man, and I had willingly went on a date with him, got into his car and let things get to that point. I'm not saying I think it was my fault, although I guess I am. But when I compare myself to the innocent women who suffer brutal gang rapes, I just can't help but think it really was my fault. This is too deep of an LJ entry to be typing while I'm in class. At least I'm not a crier. I never cried over that bullshit that happened to me. I won't let myself. I'd rather be angry. It's a far superior emotion.