Hey...
ok so I'm finally updating... all i can say is this has been a shitty week again :(... im always depressed... AH!...
ok so yesterday Trevor said something and i got really mad ar him and told him to keep the notebook and not talk to me... unfortanately he listened... he didnt even make an attempt to fix things... so i went home looked at his pic and cried again...
then i calmed down and went with the guys to this abandonded barn... that place was crazy... there was a LOT of dead animals... and the weird thing... all the heads were missing... *creepy*... then we heard the gates rattler so we jumped into Josh S's car and sped outta that crazy place...
then today i went with Josh, James, Peter, and Chaz to the purple park and Rachel and Amanda were there with Bonzo, Ron, Rich, and Tim... they played 4 on 4 b-ball lol that was an interesting game to watch lol...
after the game got over we saw Trevor so Josh followed him to Karens house... :/... either he didnt see me or he decided to completely ignore me... that hurt so i spent the whole ride to WI crying again...
2 guys have basically asked me out... i have turned them both down... im definately not ready for another relationship... my emotions are haywire... and idk whether or not to believe in love anymore... i fell way too hard way too fast... Trevor told me to get over it... im glad it was so easy for him!!!... because its really not... i almost cried during our Pep assembly b/c i saw him walk by and i couldnt concentrate on anything else...
my advice to everyone: NEVER FALL IN LOVE...
it's great when you share it but when u r solitary... it kills
ok so yesterday Trevor said something and i got really mad ar him and told him to keep the notebook and not talk to me... unfortanately he listened... he didnt even make an attempt to fix things... so i went home looked at his pic and cried again...
then i calmed down and went with the guys to this abandonded barn... that place was crazy... there was a LOT of dead animals... and the weird thing... all the heads were missing... *creepy*... then we heard the gates rattler so we jumped into Josh S's car and sped outta that crazy place...
then today i went with Josh, James, Peter, and Chaz to the purple park and Rachel and Amanda were there with Bonzo, Ron, Rich, and Tim... they played 4 on 4 b-ball lol that was an interesting game to watch lol...
after the game got over we saw Trevor so Josh followed him to Karens house... :/... either he didnt see me or he decided to completely ignore me... that hurt so i spent the whole ride to WI crying again...
2 guys have basically asked me out... i have turned them both down... im definately not ready for another relationship... my emotions are haywire... and idk whether or not to believe in love anymore... i fell way too hard way too fast... Trevor told me to get over it... im glad it was so easy for him!!!... because its really not... i almost cried during our Pep assembly b/c i saw him walk by and i couldnt concentrate on anything else...
my advice to everyone: NEVER FALL IN LOVE...
it's great when you share it but when u r solitary... it kills