*What* *is* *wrong* *with* *me* *?* :'(

[nt_rly_hrtbrkn]

What the hell is wrong with me?!?! :'( :(... I miss Trevor so much and when he got online i was so happy but as soon as i was talking to him i got all down and depressed....

please make it stop? :'(

I hate being like this... idk even know what i feel... i just dont feel like my normal happy self today...

like normally i wouldnt get jealous... but when he even mentioned hanging with Crystal and Karen even though peter was there in the back of my mind all i could think is "the more he hangs with them the more he's gonna realize he really doesnt love me"... but shouldnt i know better than that?... i mean i trust him with everything i have... if i lost him my world would fall apart...

I dont like the way im being i dont like being jealous... thats not me...

i feel so bad for being like this and i dont even know what my problem is... maybe this whole weekend stuff is really getting to me... idk

ill update more later when i feel better

XoXo,
Kristen