Arg.
I'm stumbling through a haze in an attempt to find some light. I'm still ill and lord knows what the fuck my body is thinking or doing. I'm currently having difficulty breathing properly; I get chest pain everytime I breath. Then of course I have my dizziness and migraines and the usual crap that comes with this existance.
I'm dropping French. I'm too far behind to make it up and it's just added stress. So now I have no Science and no Foreign Language during my junior year.
I'm sick and tired of making decisions based on what looks good for college. I don't know what life is gonna be like in a year or two and i'm sick of doing everything for a goal that may be unrealistic. I am officially making decisions for the here and now. I need to be healthy now and if French is hardening that process then fuck it. Fuck college. I will get to where I wanna go with or without it.
There was more that I wanted to mention but I can't think right now. I'm going back to bed before I throw up. Not that i'm gonna throw up because that would be too easy. Out in one puking and i'm good. Instead I get to be constantly nautious with no cure available.
I'm dropping French. I'm too far behind to make it up and it's just added stress. So now I have no Science and no Foreign Language during my junior year.
I'm sick and tired of making decisions based on what looks good for college. I don't know what life is gonna be like in a year or two and i'm sick of doing everything for a goal that may be unrealistic. I am officially making decisions for the here and now. I need to be healthy now and if French is hardening that process then fuck it. Fuck college. I will get to where I wanna go with or without it.
There was more that I wanted to mention but I can't think right now. I'm going back to bed before I throw up. Not that i'm gonna throw up because that would be too easy. Out in one puking and i'm good. Instead I get to be constantly nautious with no cure available.