It gets even worse
Well, I don't know what to think. I feel just blank. I got called today to a paul-bearer (carry casket) and I told them of course without thinking twice. It is an honor to be chosen. It is going to be so hard to do this, but some things have to be done. I will be damn proud to do it. Me and my cousins are all doing it. I feel better that I will be with them doing it because there just like my brothers. I just don't know anymore. I remember when girls used to be my biggest worry...