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"so remember well...the plants of Sahared are used for headache but if the patient has headache and dizziness you give him one drop of that potion , understood? " asked gauis to gwen , He trusted her , of course, but he couldnt help thinking about Merlin's dream...If Arthur lost gwen just like his father lost Ygraine , i fear that the prince would be never the same...but most of all i fear for camelot...
" yes i understand Gauis , i already know that , you shouldnt be concerned "
"concerned about what? " gauid was obviously upset and afraid to make gwen suspicious but even if he tried to expressionless ,she could feel that something was wrong , merlin had avoided her yesterday and now Gauis was always trying to look at his potions intead of her.
"nothing..i was just...nothing, is that all? " she prefered to ignore his wierd behaviour...merlin will have to explain me what is going on otherwise...
"are you ready , princess ?" she turned around...it was Gwaine of course its him...
"nothing will ever make you stop calling me princess wont it? " she said , smiling. Arthur and the others knights never understood why he called her like that , but both of them knew...it was their little secret .
"...esmeralda would be more appropriate then? " he responded trying to hide his smile...
they were all reunited in the coutyard , ready to go.
"listen up everyone...for this day ill take Lancelot , Gwaine , Leon and Gwen , an another team with more servants , leaded by Elyan, will join us later" exclaimed Arthur . He didnt want to take Lancelot with him but he couldnt deny that in case of an attack he would protect guenievre with his life ..."did they talk to each other since he came back? did she have feelings for him? but what feelings? how could she have feelings for him? and me? she never told me that she loved me...." He tried to focus on something else but he couldnt , his thoughts was all about her...
Gwaine was helping her getting on , she didnt even seem to notice Lancelot , who was arranging gently her cape on the horse.
Merlin was arriving with Arthur's materials in a hurry , he wasnt really in a good mood
"you're lucky that gauis needs you otherwise id made you pay your lateness ! " groaned Arthur looking at Merlin who wasnt even paying attention
He couldnt accompany him , he needed to go back to the crystal cave , it was the only way he could find to know why he dreamed about her and how all of this were going to happen in the future.
"its just an ordinary day , gwen is safe " he thought
"you vent been yourself me lately merlin...did i do something wrong?" asked gwen to the young warlock
"no...nothing is wrong , i m just very busy...thats all" he said not convincingly , leaving her with arthur and the others
"he is lying to my face..."
People around her had been acting weirdly lately ...Arthur was more protective , more than usual but he seemed so absent-minded at the same time , Merlin and Gauis was ignoring her as if she wasnt really important whereas the nobles kept gossiping about her new status
Her brother was too busy to spend time with her and Lancelot didnt even look her in the eyes when he talked to her...She felt surprisingly ...alone
She really wanted to take Arthur in her arms at this moment , to feel him all around her ...but they had decided to not let the people know about their relationship , it was safer especially after the fierce reaction of Uther and the nobles when Gwen had became a lady .
Arthur and the others arrived in the village , everything seemed lifeless , a lot of injured and dead, most people were hided in their homes. Gwen was next to him , lost in her thoughts ...she was beautiful , the sun in her eyes and her hair falling perfectly on her shoulders , he could smell her sweet and faint perfume ...but then he saw her approaching Lancelot ...who was collecting the weapons, it wringed his heart to see to see her talking to him.
"could i speak to you for a moment ? " she asked to the knight . He was truly surprised , agreeably surprised
" of course my lady "
" please stop calling me like that , its quite inappropriate under the circomstances " as much as she hated that , she had to stay cold with him
" im sorry , i just ...well what is the circumstances then" Lancelot surprised himself to ask her that so quickly
"i want to be very clear , and because of that ill sound ...cold but it means a lot to me...alright? we cannot pretend like nothing happened between us ...you came to me when i was confused and afraid to lose my life but the truth is that... i ve never been in love with you Lancelot " she said extempore
Those last words tortured him , he felt his heart beating out of his chest...he couldnt find the words to answer , its like she had slapped him..hard..really hard.
Despite the noise of the other knights and villagers , of a sudden an embarrassing silent surrounded them.
"i...dont know what to say...im not here to come between you and arthur"
"thats the reason why you left me alone in the forest without even saying goodbye ? "
"i couldnt...i couldnt face you ...it would have been too painful ...i had to....we both know that you were vulnerable , fragile and at the end of the day you would have chosen him anyway"
" im not mad at you for leaving me..actually im not mad at you at all ,three years ago i thought that i could be with you without suffering, i thought that i could finally be loved and... "
"you thought that i could replace him" he interupted her firmly. " she could be with me...but she wouldnt really to..thats the difference between arthur and i ...she wanted him but she couldnt have him. "
Those words deeply hurted Gwen , she felt sorry for him , the man who saved her and sacrificied his love for her . She was hurted because she knew..deep down that he was right . " i only came because morgana begged me" she remembered how she felt at that moment...useless and insignificiant in arthur's eyes , she also remembered when he didnt answer to her , leaving her alone " maybe when you are king , things will be different"
Lancelot was everything that a sane women would want , he was kind , chevalrous , soft and gentle .He wasnt the son of his father's murderer ,he wasnt a prince with a great destiny coming first , he wasnt the reason why she could be killed... Yes , it would have been easier and saner for Gwen to love the knight instead of Arthur but she was happy...she was happy being insane.
"i care about you Lancelot... i meant everything that i said to you back then , i really did but i need to know....i need to know if..."
"if i still have feelings for you?.... the answer is ...no..not anymore" he said "yes i do... since the first time i ve seen you." he thought
"alright...but ...im not the women that you think i am...you dont really know me actually " Lancelot's answer should have relieved her but she knew he was lying , she could see that in his eyes. She didnt how to behave, what to say , her feelings for Arthur and him was very clear in her head but she could help feeling sad for him cause she knew , more than anyone, how it felt to hide one's feelings. Afterall she never had the strengh to tell Arthur that she loved him....
She left him alone...when of a sudden she noticed Arthur looking at her , at them....He seemed upset , it had been a long time since those blue eyes hadnt look at her like that....she turned around to see Lancelot who was looking at her too , coldly. it was just the three of them...as if nothing else existed. just like three years ago...
Arthur wasnt insecure about Lancelot , he wasnt a threat for him...not anymore...he was afraid of losing her....she had gone through so much for him and it was nothing compare to what he expected for their future...his father and his sister ...his so calling family were going to try everything to break them , to hurt her ... the nobles were already criticizing her....she was his weakness and his strengh at the same time.He was aware of that... "how much she can go through ? how many years she can wait for me? "
even if he tried to put a brave face in front of her...he knew that the road was still long...and if she felt something for the knight , the road was going to be longer.
it was the end of the day, it was almost sunset....everyone was tired and ready to go back to camelot when suddenly ....gwaine came out of nowhere , running.. out of breath, he was shaking
' i lost her ...i lost gwen...i was with her and when i turned around she was gone! i dont know what happened , ive search everywhere , i.." he said catching his breath.
Arthur hurled his sword , ready to hit gwaine with all his strengh " how could you! how could she disappear just like that? you useless moron ! i want gwen to be found before the sunset , we will stay all night if we have too!" he shouted . He tried to stay calm but he was beside himself with worry , he knew that once the sun disappears , it will be more and more difficult to find her.
but Arthur and his knights had no idea about those men , the sword in their hands , who were spying on them ready to attack.
"nothing....nothing at all..." thought merlin . He went to the crystal cave but nothing...it was as if the cave never existed. The young warlock started to lose hope when he found a letter on his bed.
"what is it ? i dont usually get letters"
He sitted and opened the letter....his hand was shaking , he was suddenly in a sweat , he couldnt see clearly his room anymore...everything became dark....'how is that possible? how could she..?"
He took his jacket and he went hurtling off.
" i know everything , you are just like me....we're binded Merlin
you rejected me whereas only you could understand me....
my revenge will have no limits
Morgana le fay "
" yes i understand Gauis , i already know that , you shouldnt be concerned "
"concerned about what? " gauid was obviously upset and afraid to make gwen suspicious but even if he tried to expressionless ,she could feel that something was wrong , merlin had avoided her yesterday and now Gauis was always trying to look at his potions intead of her.
"nothing..i was just...nothing, is that all? " she prefered to ignore his wierd behaviour...merlin will have to explain me what is going on otherwise...
"are you ready , princess ?" she turned around...it was Gwaine of course its him...
"nothing will ever make you stop calling me princess wont it? " she said , smiling. Arthur and the others knights never understood why he called her like that , but both of them knew...it was their little secret .
"...esmeralda would be more appropriate then? " he responded trying to hide his smile...
they were all reunited in the coutyard , ready to go.
"listen up everyone...for this day ill take Lancelot , Gwaine , Leon and Gwen , an another team with more servants , leaded by Elyan, will join us later" exclaimed Arthur . He didnt want to take Lancelot with him but he couldnt deny that in case of an attack he would protect guenievre with his life ..."did they talk to each other since he came back? did she have feelings for him? but what feelings? how could she have feelings for him? and me? she never told me that she loved me...." He tried to focus on something else but he couldnt , his thoughts was all about her...
Gwaine was helping her getting on , she didnt even seem to notice Lancelot , who was arranging gently her cape on the horse.
Merlin was arriving with Arthur's materials in a hurry , he wasnt really in a good mood
"you're lucky that gauis needs you otherwise id made you pay your lateness ! " groaned Arthur looking at Merlin who wasnt even paying attention
He couldnt accompany him , he needed to go back to the crystal cave , it was the only way he could find to know why he dreamed about her and how all of this were going to happen in the future.
"its just an ordinary day , gwen is safe " he thought
"you vent been yourself me lately merlin...did i do something wrong?" asked gwen to the young warlock
"no...nothing is wrong , i m just very busy...thats all" he said not convincingly , leaving her with arthur and the others
"he is lying to my face..."
People around her had been acting weirdly lately ...Arthur was more protective , more than usual but he seemed so absent-minded at the same time , Merlin and Gauis was ignoring her as if she wasnt really important whereas the nobles kept gossiping about her new status
Her brother was too busy to spend time with her and Lancelot didnt even look her in the eyes when he talked to her...She felt surprisingly ...alone
She really wanted to take Arthur in her arms at this moment , to feel him all around her ...but they had decided to not let the people know about their relationship , it was safer especially after the fierce reaction of Uther and the nobles when Gwen had became a lady .
Arthur and the others arrived in the village , everything seemed lifeless , a lot of injured and dead, most people were hided in their homes. Gwen was next to him , lost in her thoughts ...she was beautiful , the sun in her eyes and her hair falling perfectly on her shoulders , he could smell her sweet and faint perfume ...but then he saw her approaching Lancelot ...who was collecting the weapons, it wringed his heart to see to see her talking to him.
"could i speak to you for a moment ? " she asked to the knight . He was truly surprised , agreeably surprised
" of course my lady "
" please stop calling me like that , its quite inappropriate under the circomstances " as much as she hated that , she had to stay cold with him
" im sorry , i just ...well what is the circumstances then" Lancelot surprised himself to ask her that so quickly
"i want to be very clear , and because of that ill sound ...cold but it means a lot to me...alright? we cannot pretend like nothing happened between us ...you came to me when i was confused and afraid to lose my life but the truth is that... i ve never been in love with you Lancelot " she said extempore
Those last words tortured him , he felt his heart beating out of his chest...he couldnt find the words to answer , its like she had slapped him..hard..really hard.
Despite the noise of the other knights and villagers , of a sudden an embarrassing silent surrounded them.
"i...dont know what to say...im not here to come between you and arthur"
"thats the reason why you left me alone in the forest without even saying goodbye ? "
"i couldnt...i couldnt face you ...it would have been too painful ...i had to....we both know that you were vulnerable , fragile and at the end of the day you would have chosen him anyway"
" im not mad at you for leaving me..actually im not mad at you at all ,three years ago i thought that i could be with you without suffering, i thought that i could finally be loved and... "
"you thought that i could replace him" he interupted her firmly. " she could be with me...but she wouldnt really to..thats the difference between arthur and i ...she wanted him but she couldnt have him. "
Those words deeply hurted Gwen , she felt sorry for him , the man who saved her and sacrificied his love for her . She was hurted because she knew..deep down that he was right . " i only came because morgana begged me" she remembered how she felt at that moment...useless and insignificiant in arthur's eyes , she also remembered when he didnt answer to her , leaving her alone " maybe when you are king , things will be different"
Lancelot was everything that a sane women would want , he was kind , chevalrous , soft and gentle .He wasnt the son of his father's murderer ,he wasnt a prince with a great destiny coming first , he wasnt the reason why she could be killed... Yes , it would have been easier and saner for Gwen to love the knight instead of Arthur but she was happy...she was happy being insane.
"i care about you Lancelot... i meant everything that i said to you back then , i really did but i need to know....i need to know if..."
"if i still have feelings for you?.... the answer is ...no..not anymore" he said "yes i do... since the first time i ve seen you." he thought
"alright...but ...im not the women that you think i am...you dont really know me actually " Lancelot's answer should have relieved her but she knew he was lying , she could see that in his eyes. She didnt how to behave, what to say , her feelings for Arthur and him was very clear in her head but she could help feeling sad for him cause she knew , more than anyone, how it felt to hide one's feelings. Afterall she never had the strengh to tell Arthur that she loved him....
She left him alone...when of a sudden she noticed Arthur looking at her , at them....He seemed upset , it had been a long time since those blue eyes hadnt look at her like that....she turned around to see Lancelot who was looking at her too , coldly. it was just the three of them...as if nothing else existed. just like three years ago...
Arthur wasnt insecure about Lancelot , he wasnt a threat for him...not anymore...he was afraid of losing her....she had gone through so much for him and it was nothing compare to what he expected for their future...his father and his sister ...his so calling family were going to try everything to break them , to hurt her ... the nobles were already criticizing her....she was his weakness and his strengh at the same time.He was aware of that... "how much she can go through ? how many years she can wait for me? "
even if he tried to put a brave face in front of her...he knew that the road was still long...and if she felt something for the knight , the road was going to be longer.
it was the end of the day, it was almost sunset....everyone was tired and ready to go back to camelot when suddenly ....gwaine came out of nowhere , running.. out of breath, he was shaking
' i lost her ...i lost gwen...i was with her and when i turned around she was gone! i dont know what happened , ive search everywhere , i.." he said catching his breath.
Arthur hurled his sword , ready to hit gwaine with all his strengh " how could you! how could she disappear just like that? you useless moron ! i want gwen to be found before the sunset , we will stay all night if we have too!" he shouted . He tried to stay calm but he was beside himself with worry , he knew that once the sun disappears , it will be more and more difficult to find her.
but Arthur and his knights had no idea about those men , the sword in their hands , who were spying on them ready to attack.
"nothing....nothing at all..." thought merlin . He went to the crystal cave but nothing...it was as if the cave never existed. The young warlock started to lose hope when he found a letter on his bed.
"what is it ? i dont usually get letters"
He sitted and opened the letter....his hand was shaking , he was suddenly in a sweat , he couldnt see clearly his room anymore...everything became dark....'how is that possible? how could she..?"
He took his jacket and he went hurtling off.
" i know everything , you are just like me....we're binded Merlin
you rejected me whereas only you could understand me....
my revenge will have no limits
Morgana le fay "