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i am far too sensitive, picky, and i have extreme difficulty when it comes to making decisions.
in situations, i tend to lean towards whatever the other person involved wants, NO MATTER WHAT IT IS. (most of the time)
i suppose i care too much about others, and yes, i think this is entirely possible.
i need to be more selfish.
i went to the mariners game last night, and i was absolutely hammered.
i've had a rough week, and i rarely take my emotions out through inducing myself with alcholic beverages, BUT, last night was an acception.
i feel as though i've been tossed around between the ridiculous men in my life. whenever i find someone who appreciates me, i lose him. and whenever i find the complete opposite, it ends up being this intense rush of emotions and feelings... that result in a lot of pain. it's difficult to describe..
i'm sick, and i was annoyed.. because i drove 3 sloshed people into seattle from my house. i had a horrible rush hour head ache. so we park, and i down about 7 or 8 shots of captain mo. SWEET. we go to pay for parking and the man with a VERY THICK accent tried to explain to me that the machine wasnt taking money, so i had to drive to another lot.
by this time, i was far more than buzzed and i got a little nervous.
but it didn't stop me, i drove down the street. BIG STEp.
parked. drank more.
jesus natalie, what where you thinking.
somehow, danny and lindsay disapeared...? audrey and i tripped through the streets to the stadium.
from this point, i remember very little.
we went back to danny's.. god danny and i have always been so wierd. but right now, i think he has feelings for me- but he has the STRANGEST way of expressing them. he acts like an asshole but in this wierd FLIRTACIOUS manner that drives me insane, in a bad way.
god i hate myself drunk. i get extremely touchy with whoever i'm with. and i know people take those signals in the wrong way. i make myself disgusted remembering danny with his arm all around my waist.
ehhhhh yuuuccckkk.
i feel awful right now.
AWFUL.
anywho, lindsay took a few pictures of me in my state of high intoxication on her camera phone:
peace
in situations, i tend to lean towards whatever the other person involved wants, NO MATTER WHAT IT IS. (most of the time)
i suppose i care too much about others, and yes, i think this is entirely possible.
i need to be more selfish.
i went to the mariners game last night, and i was absolutely hammered.
i've had a rough week, and i rarely take my emotions out through inducing myself with alcholic beverages, BUT, last night was an acception.
i feel as though i've been tossed around between the ridiculous men in my life. whenever i find someone who appreciates me, i lose him. and whenever i find the complete opposite, it ends up being this intense rush of emotions and feelings... that result in a lot of pain. it's difficult to describe..
i'm sick, and i was annoyed.. because i drove 3 sloshed people into seattle from my house. i had a horrible rush hour head ache. so we park, and i down about 7 or 8 shots of captain mo. SWEET. we go to pay for parking and the man with a VERY THICK accent tried to explain to me that the machine wasnt taking money, so i had to drive to another lot.
by this time, i was far more than buzzed and i got a little nervous.
but it didn't stop me, i drove down the street. BIG STEp.
parked. drank more.
jesus natalie, what where you thinking.
somehow, danny and lindsay disapeared...? audrey and i tripped through the streets to the stadium.
from this point, i remember very little.
we went back to danny's.. god danny and i have always been so wierd. but right now, i think he has feelings for me- but he has the STRANGEST way of expressing them. he acts like an asshole but in this wierd FLIRTACIOUS manner that drives me insane, in a bad way.
god i hate myself drunk. i get extremely touchy with whoever i'm with. and i know people take those signals in the wrong way. i make myself disgusted remembering danny with his arm all around my waist.
ehhhhh yuuuccckkk.
i feel awful right now.
AWFUL.
anywho, lindsay took a few pictures of me in my state of high intoxication on her camera phone:
peace