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ok so we all know im in love with One Tree Hill. I always will be. Please please dont let them cancel it on me! NOOO
anyway.
I hate/love every episode.. more love even with the insane f-ed up ones. But the happy ones are the hardest.. because they make me all happy, until I remember what I thought I had.
I fucked my life up a lot.
I want to know that itll all be ok.
that ill be a dad... a good one. and ill be able to take care of my family.
that I'll have a daughter or son or both who love me as intensely as I already do
that I'll find SOMEONE who i can have a future with. and wants a future with me.
i havent remotely achieved any of these things.. but I thought i was on the path once. I wasnt.. it just took me a while to get that. this isnt even about that. its about.. Nathan. The character nathan. I want to be HIM when I get there.. i cant even say when I grow up..the character is a year younger than me. I want to be a good man, a good dad, a good husband, and i want to provide for my family and chase my dreams and want us all to make it through.
thats a lot to ask for.
i dont get waht I ask for... so im terrified of whats coming at me.
anyway.
I hate/love every episode.. more love even with the insane f-ed up ones. But the happy ones are the hardest.. because they make me all happy, until I remember what I thought I had.
I fucked my life up a lot.
I want to know that itll all be ok.
that ill be a dad... a good one. and ill be able to take care of my family.
that I'll have a daughter or son or both who love me as intensely as I already do
that I'll find SOMEONE who i can have a future with. and wants a future with me.
i havent remotely achieved any of these things.. but I thought i was on the path once. I wasnt.. it just took me a while to get that. this isnt even about that. its about.. Nathan. The character nathan. I want to be HIM when I get there.. i cant even say when I grow up..the character is a year younger than me. I want to be a good man, a good dad, a good husband, and i want to provide for my family and chase my dreams and want us all to make it through.
thats a lot to ask for.
i dont get waht I ask for... so im terrified of whats coming at me.