Starting Over.
Being with someone for five years is difficult. Especially with a self diagnosis of ADD. I get bored easily, (maybe that is why we were break up make up all the time.) so starting over is scary. I haven't loved anyone else in a long time, hell I'm not sure I want too. On top of have to find someone else I must also find a new place to live on $140 a month, yeah not happening. I do have awhile to look for a new spot. The worst part is that i have to move out of the house that my son is in. That's like leaving my soul behind, no it is leaving my soul behind. Just so the baby mama can find some one new. I can only make assumptions as to who it is but regardless it still kills me in side. The i had another thought today maybe she wants me out to move her friend that I don't like in with her kid. Either situation is annoying.
The whole drama this girl has created for me has lead to a lot of angry out burst. I feel that I am losing control. So I came up with new relaxing techniques. I'm sure she will put them to the test. They seemed to helped me while I was at work. Writing in LJ again might be helping too.
The whole drama this girl has created for me has lead to a lot of angry out burst. I feel that I am losing control. So I came up with new relaxing techniques. I'm sure she will put them to the test. They seemed to helped me while I was at work. Writing in LJ again might be helping too.